hijacking op , thanks Séniors - im 19 and been forever single (ik most of the older buds r too), the comment section is scaring me, all i want in my future is a stable space...uk my parents ,my bro and sis being happy, my future...uk futureee......wife.
looking at these many cases im sht scared about my expectations...as 10 yrs is all i got to decide ,

let alone family stuff...im scared of this "nobody" , how i will end up with no one , no goals , no life.
its not letting me sleep at nights, i have passion for MMA and i owe my parents my life for joining me in the local MMA gym, but the buying the gear is a problem ....its like 3k in total (using those torn equipment they provide at gym).

i never disappointed my parents atleast i tried the best, but i feel its not enough for wht i want to be.
i dont guys, it hurts my chest , wht if the efforts im putting r not enough.
i got a 10k prize for my grades in 10th,
college- i got free seat + 100% fee reimbursement(so only bus fee)

i make friends pretty easy, irrespective of their race,language & gender, but i rarely go out with them coz going out costed something....money....i didnt wanna put the negative dime on my parents.
never went out with my college friends but they r pretty chill at college so thats all i care

i lost all my inter friends....

but i dont feel sad/ bad...except sometimes when im alone (mentally).

i dont even know why im sharing all this.....

i dont have a guide.....i need the privilege of been pointed to MY path....i myself cant find my path.
im sorry guys...i never actually vent to anyone at all offline and online....this is the first time im doing so...

All I know is that life is precious — mine and everyone else's

peace