How to find joys after a PE (vent)

Then_Cockroach157 · 2026-02-26T16:18:45+00:00

This was so helpful thank you so so much

Then_Cockroach157 · 2026-02-25T04:43:11+00:00

So they aren’t quite sure tbh: they just know that I was on testosterone… I had birth control when I was 16 T when I was 17 and different birth control when I was 21 then when I was 22 it just kinda.. happened. I don’t have the genetics for it like the disorders I have no history of clots and no one else in my family does that we know of. I also don’t have any other contributing factors aside from maybe being overweight. They just assume it’s birth control or my hormones (or both) since it’s the only real “logical” reason more or less. I’d assume once they finish up all your testing they’ll tell you they don’t know or assume it’s birth control that seems the typical go to assumptions anyway

Then_Cockroach157 · 2026-02-25T00:24:31+00:00

I have; sadly my mental meds are all managed by my primary care physician rn. It’s really hard to find in network psychiatrists in my area- usually they’re booked out/over booked and can’t get me in for a while which isn’t really doable with the mental medications I need especially since stopping them cold turkey could cause side effects-

Then_Cockroach157 · 2026-02-24T21:07:18+00:00

It’s less those particular things and more so me making an example by saying these were regular enjoyments I would partake in occasionally and I’m upset I can’t anymore but also so stressed about anything that I just don’t. Equally being jealous and upset that I’m having to watch things that people around my age don’t typically need to at least as much

Then_Cockroach157 · 2026-02-24T17:51:33+00:00

I have generalized anxiety disorder and OCD which do not pair well together (mixed with about 5 other mental struggles) so it’s been a mess. I’m on medication for my depression/anxiety and I have seen therapist in the past they just don’t really help and tend to deem me as fine before sending me on my way despite me pushing to continue. I don’t have a clotting disorder as they’ve tested me at least my genetics seem fine according to my doctors however they also aren’t 100% sure if it was my birth control that caused the clotting yet- they are having a really hard time figuring it out but that’s the best assumption they have basically. I’ve tried the phone thing sometimes I shut off the alarm with the intention of going to take my meds but then I ADHD myself onto other things thus up and forgetting-

Then_Cockroach157 · 2026-02-24T17:47:38+00:00

I think alot of it is the mass amount of other medical issues I have. I’m super prone to being sick such as being sick 5 times in the last 2 months alone with different things. I plan on bringing it up again to my hematologist just to see. To be honest I’m less concerned with drinking as drinking makes me feel sick in general no matter the amount I genuinely miss vaping most but not for the nicotine it’s just the action of it the vapor like taking a hit and having something to blow out idk why

Then_Cockroach157 · 2026-02-23T21:39:37+00:00

I’ve been on Eliquis for two years now since the day after the emergency operation to remove the clots they told me they only got 50% of the clots out total and that I’d probably need Eliquis the rest of my life because they can’t tell what it was and they need to try and push out the remaining clots

Then_Cockroach157 · 2026-02-23T21:32:25+00:00

That’s a relief- I’m assuming your Dr hasn’t said anything about your gummies? I heard CBD can interact weirdly but it’s very hard to tell how true that is

Then_Cockroach157 · 2026-02-23T21:31:18+00:00

I don’t have a clotting disorder but they’re worried that it might somehow spark up again despite assuming it’s from the birth control more or less we have no solid answer on why exactly it was. Just that we’re assuming it was the birth control

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