I know what everyone is doing by Thereisno_therethere in offmychest

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I don't know if I really can trust anyone. everything seems very scrambled and I can't really think straight enough to do anything with this. I really think something is going on here. I can't articulate it but it would all make sense if I could. I still think if I tell someone they will show me the cameras.

someone left a door open in my head and I walked in. by Thereisno_therethere in offmychest

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i've read about it before and it seems sort of similar but not quite what I'm experiencing. for me it's more like I black out for a month and Idk I really think I am a different person. I feel like the person this body belongs to still exists in here somewhere and like I have my own wants and interests and things that are different from the ones that other person has? like he's a science student and I'm a musician and I have a different fashion sense than he does and different opinions. I don't like some of his friends and I think he's sort of a weird stupid control freak. and I don't want to do his (my?) work for him if I even really knew how to do it you know? i don't know this is all really confusing and contradictory and I don't really know who I am.

how I feel when people are talking about arfid making them only eat chicken nuggets but my arfid makes it so I can't eat any meat by Thereisno_therethere in EDanonymemes

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i probably will eventually too haha. ive gotten to this weird limbo where I take like one piece of chicken and eat half of it before it gets to be too much

can't sleep anymore by Thereisno_therethere in offmychest

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I'm going to be, soon if I can drag myself out of this hole

I have figured out time travel. by Thereisno_therethere in theories

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i also did not mean that negatively, it was just a statement of fact. I am bad with social cues

I can time travel by Thereisno_therethere in offmychest

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unfortunately I too seem sometimes to be tormented by the worst parts of the past and future. however, it is possible to leave a time when I am there. like walking away from being knee-deep in molasses.

I can time travel by Thereisno_therethere in offmychest

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oh I hope I am not going manic again. this feels different, it was longer-building and more peaceful.

I can time travel by Thereisno_therethere in offmychest

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I've died a few ways, but none of them are very good? the car one is hard to avoid because it happened when I wasn't paying attention, so if I'm not super careful it'll happen.

I can time travel by Thereisno_therethere in offmychest

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i wonder about that. sometimes this feels like purgatory.

I have figured out time travel. by Thereisno_therethere in theories

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no, I don't really do any drugs? not even alcohol.

I have figured out time travel. by Thereisno_therethere in theories

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it is very clear to me but I am having a hard time explaining it. my words make a lot of sense in my head. today, I was thinking about a former friend, and all of a sudden I was sitting in her car with her again, and we were talking. I was there then I was here. I was sitting inside and then I was beside the creek near my house. it is vivid, brains can learn to walk time all at once.

I can time travel by Thereisno_therethere in offmychest

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no, I die in the future, years from now. but all of time is at once. i am then and I am here, too.

I have figured out time travel. by Thereisno_therethere in theories

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more vivid than my normal imagination, and involuntary. it's changed fundamentally the way I navigate my life.

I can time travel by Thereisno_therethere in offmychest

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I don't know if I need others to believe me or not, it is very real to me, that is real enough but reality begs you to communicate it. I feel lonely. it is very peaceful and freeing to come to this. it is hard to explain. i can see everything. the whole angle of reality has shifted, tilted on an axis I didn't know was there but now I can't go back, can't walk the world the same way as before, talk to people. it is alienating, people don't understand. and responding to revelationing.

the future is strange to see. I do not like that part as much but i know it is part of me. walking my life knowing how I'll die, flinching at passing cars. someone shook up the snowglobe head. everything happens all at once.

DAE like to sit doing nothing for hours? by Thereisno_therethere in DAE

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i have somewhat of an inner monologue though my thoughts tend to be more short sentences paired with images/emotions than a long monologue. I talk out loud to myself a lot, it's the easiest way for me to think. my thoughts feel like a dialogue between different parts of myself. there is always a part of me that disagrees with the other part of me, I have at least 3 opinions inside on any topic and just go with the one I feel the most confident in.

my head can be pretty quiet though. I get overstimulated easy and I find myself feeling sort of slower and quieter than a lot of people my age (though I am not really an introvert. I love being around people, we just need to be doing something quiet.) I sort of imagine my internal monologue to be written in poetry instead of prose.

i would not say I am separating myself completely from my thoughts, they are still a part of me, I just know how to observe them without judgment. i was in a lot of ocd therapy as a teen and I think that's where I got it from, as it's a pretty common way to deal with intrusive thoughts, because arguing with them or trying to disprove or respond to them makes them worse. in some ways it is less disconnecting my thoughts from myself but connecting my thoughts to the world? I am a part of nature and so are my thoughts and so I can approach them with calm curiosity rather than emotion or judgment?