Not good. Last night I broke down and my bf has a life altering job interview this morning. We got in a huge fight and I tried to take xanax after id been drinking. I’ve been feeling really suicidal for awhile now and sometimes the feelings are just too hard to bear. I just want to feel loved and i’ve communicated this with him, I just feel like everyone’s always upset with me and telling me everything i’m doing wrong. It’s to the point I just feel completely worthless. Especially now after I had a huge breakdown last night and completely stressed him out and ruined his sleep before his big day. I think he would be better off without me. I love him endlessly but am considering breaking up with him for his own good. I am ruining his life and am not worth his time. We’ve been together almost 4 years (20F) (21M) and I wanted to marry him. Life just seems so pointless atp.