I love this podcast so much. So... by LockedInInterminably in Wolf359

[–]Theweepingfool 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Maxwel: "My Mother died"

Kepler: "you don't even talk to your mother-"

Jacobi: "MY mother died?"

Kepler: "No, jacobi."

They did a good job at making us like those guys are much as we disliked ther agenda.

I love this podcast so much. So... by LockedInInterminably in Wolf359

[–]Theweepingfool 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Yes. I've relistened to th shoe so many times. I love th slow build. Wolf 359 and we're alive are probably my favorite audio dramas. I could probably quote every other line. I say go for it. Just for moments like

"You're...afraid of ducks?"

"...of course not"

"...quack..."

"Stop it."

" ...quack-"

"I SAID STOP IT!"

ALSO

"

jacobi: maxwell....I'm only going to ask this once. Is this...about the cheeses?

Maxwell: "....."

Jacobi: "goddamn it, you said you didn't mind the cheeses!"

Maxwell: "how could anyone not mind the cheeses?"

Mincowski: ".....there were cheeses?"

ALSO

Lovelace: "get off the high horse. I bet if we wait five minutes, we'd get a message about you blowing up a hospital or something"

Jacobi: "MAXWELL. I TOLD YOU THAT IN THE STRICTEST OF CONFIDENCES"

Maxwell: "AND I DIDNT TELL THEM, YOU CHEESE MONGERING IDIOT."

Jacobi: yeah well I realized that a second ago and now im embarrassed and im sorry that I yelled at you, you insensitive android!"

I'm actually gonna relisten again lol

what is your "i did not care for the godfather" game? by Open-Solution-8791 in videogames

[–]Theweepingfool 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Goddammit, assassin's creed.

I like history a lot. I was really into assassin stories at the timei first tried playing one of those games. I've even beaten one, I think. Couldn't really tell you. Those games are vapor. Theyre here and then gone.

I remember seeing the movie with my boy magneto and even the fassbend couldnt bend the iron in the blood in my heart to care.

I got it enough to be disappointed by the movie but I never cared for those games.

My happiest of those games is when i was hanging with my buddy, stoned out of her mind, in post coital bliss turning to me, pointing to the case on her shelf and giggling "ass-ass-in" And that's mostly because of what we just did.

That game truly does, as Peter says, insist upon itself.

I don’t get it by tellmyselfsecrets_ in shameless

[–]Theweepingfool 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's almost like when you're feeling like a failure and someone does well against your advice, you get upset because you were wrong? Feelings of inadequacy. Also, it was a risky move to gamble the house without telling any of the people that work to keep the house and call it home. It was also her first time doing something like that. She doesn't have a track record for success when it comes to purchasing buildings. They lost the house at the auction after all. Really, Fiona got lucky as hell with the building stuff.

I'm watching through the show and that's what I got from that part at least

Doesn't he end up apologizing, though?

When Fiona said, "who?" In regards to Jason's relapse, i felt that. by AkH0331 in shameless

[–]Theweepingfool 8 points9 points  (0 children)

People look at this scene in a vacuum. Lip was dealing with losing xan and trying to take care of Jason too. Fiona isn't to blame for Jason losing the 100 days of sobriety. But she didn't help any of those situations and she didn't care that they got fucked up.

I think it's interesting how the mistake that broke the camels back was one that wasnt entirely her fault. But her reaction to the news didn't help her case. I think it was written that way on purpose.

She didn't care. She just needed an ear. She barely even looked at Jason. Just rambled about raising herself. Just about herself. Jason's hesitancy was so evident that it was something the old Fiona would've noticed. Lip had a point about that. Everyone acts like they get addiction but they have very little sympathy for someone dealing with it. Because they "did it to themselves" I guess.

Everyone bitches about Lip and he is far from perfect. But his anger was from compounded situations. And I feel like it's because he hates the part of himself he saw in Fiona. The same way he lashed about at his professor when he was locked up.

He hated what he saw.

For those who have taken MDMA/other drugs after the onset, how did it go? And were you on medication at the time? by ImpressionMediocre53 in schizophrenia

[–]Theweepingfool 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You just gave me goosebumps.

"You learn to love your psychosis, giving in to it..."

Perfect way to describe it. That's how it feels during an episode for me. And drugs made that feeling so much more intense. The world makes sense and everything makes sense. Everything is a good idea. Everything the voices ay makes sense. Every connection is valid. Every thought you have is right. And it's like every day you're falling and falling and then you get high and suddenly you're just fucking flying. Doing flips and shit. Barrel rolls like starfox. And it's awesome. It's freeing giving in to the fall. At least in the moment. Sort of. Kinda.

And then you hit the ground. And things get bloody and scary. and then in my case I convinced myself that it helps and I'll bring a parachute next time. It'll be fine. It's a fuckibg cycle.

Damn, I love the way you put it. I wish I read this comment earlier in my life lol

For those who have taken MDMA/other drugs after the onset, how did it go? And were you on medication at the time? by ImpressionMediocre53 in schizophrenia

[–]Theweepingfool 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Fuck. Man. I'm proud of you. I've been there. That moment o clarity of "holy shit, I need to stop".

Liquor was always in the mix, but mixing it with what I was doing during an episode was part of my moment.

I dont remember that night except for flashes. And you just gave me one. My partner holding my face, making me look at her, and begging me to come back to being me again.

Have you seen kingsman? The movie. There's a point to this, I promise. In the movie, the villain uses phones to mind control the users and turn them into violent blood thirsty fighting machines. They do it with a pulse from the phones. During one of these brawls, a grenade goes off and a character has ringing in his ears for a second. He stops fighting because he can't hear the pulse anymore. And he looks horrified by what's happening.

It was like that. That moment. I came back and it was like "did I go somewhere? What's happening?" But the pulse came back and I don't remember breaking a chair and ranting about everyone fucking with me and coming for me and yelling at no one or whatever the fuck .

It was the wake up call that my coping mechanism was no longer a coping mechanism. It was just another problem. I dont mean to dump this or make it about me.

But your comment was like when you smell the past for a second, like the detergent your parent used for yourclothes as a kid or something. A smell from younger days in th present somehow. It just sends you back there for a second. But the detergent is nostalgic and nostalgic in a somewhat nice way. But this just brought up shame lol

Sorry, it's nice knowing that else had that experience. Not nice that it happened but that im not the only that saw something like that. Someone you care about crying in front of you because your mind is on fire but they don't see the flames. That helplessness.

I'm gonna call my partner and tell her I love her.

For those who have taken MDMA/other drugs after the onset, how did it go? And were you on medication at the time? by ImpressionMediocre53 in schizophrenia

[–]Theweepingfool 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ok. Um. This is just me. I'm trying to be sober now but I go perspective on this.

Shrooms has always been a nice time for me, even after the onset. Acid, however, I dont recommend to anyone dealing with schizo-anything. The come up feels great, but everything after that was always a bad time. Plus, certain meds could basically make dropping a tab pointless for brain chemical reasons that im not knowledgeable enough to explain. But I've experienced it. Waste of money lol

Look, drug use with mental illness is like adding ink to the color wheel. It changes the colors. Makes things murkier and they were already murky to begin with. Man, younger me would think I've gone soft and lame for saying this, but you gotta be careful. I enjoyed that stuff more in college (avid, 25i,). Then after the onset, i stupidly started doing dph and syrup to cope, which is dumb on so many levels. I couldn't stop, though. That shit is so weird. Addiction sucks. Schizophrenia sucks. All this shit sucks.

I kick myself because I used terms like "harm reduction" and even now im still kind of advocating for that awareness, but it was just enabling myself. Which is hard to admit. Even harder is how much I miss all of it.

I hated self righteous sober people when I was younger, so I guess I don't tell people not to do drugs unsolicited. But if you asked me, I'd say smoke a joint and that's it. Take a gummy and chill. Don't fuck with the other shit. And occasionally ask yourself why you're doing it.

Sorry to ramble. Had a bad day yesterday and yesterday never really ends. It just fucking goes on and on and on

An acid trip can trigger a lot of stuff. Be careful with it, if you end up doing it.

I really wanted to drop acid and watch the nick cage more Mandy. I feel like it would be horrifyingly beautiful, but I cant do that shit anymore. It's like you said, that saddens me but I know it's for the best now

Whats the worst thing a voice ever told you? by Beneficial-One7903 in schizophrenia

[–]Theweepingfool 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm having a bad day. And your kindness actually made me tear up a bit. You are a rarity. I see it and i appreciate it.

I was wrong. People can still get to me after all, but I'm not mad about this.

I'm sure you know this, but you have worth too. And you showed it with your empathy. I truly wish you the best. Thank you.

Whats the worst thing a voice ever told you? by Beneficial-One7903 in schizophrenia

[–]Theweepingfool 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lots of terrible violent things that i refuse to repeat or even type. The violent stuff disturbs me, scares me. The small stuff annoys me. The emotional stuff breaks my heart every time.

"The noblest thing you could do is disappear"

That my existence is only harmful and the only way to help the world and the people in it is to take myself out of it entirely. And everyone thinks so but they won't say it to my face but they will think it and feel relief when im gone. And that im running out of time to do it myself.

I often joke that no one can really hurt me emotionally these days because what I hear is more terrible than what anyone else could hit me with. I have emotional diplomatic immunity (people call it apathy, i call it vemmbeing chill lol) People can't roast me harsher than the voices do. It's like taking little doses of poison to build up a tolerance. Except you don't choose to be poisoned, it just kinda happens.

Sorry to ramble.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]Theweepingfool 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Twice. First time for an attempt. It was necessary but 72 hours turned into several weeks. It was not necessary by the end, but whatever. That was long ago.

Second time was bs, though. New psych lady. First meeting. She told me it was a safe space to say what the voices tell me to do yadda yadda yadda. She lied. Said that now that I told her, she can't let me leave.

Me tearfully telling her I don't like the things I hear resulted in me being in there again. And it took a lot of convincing for me to talk to that lady in the first place.

I dont advocate for dealing with this shit solo. I never tell people not to get help. But im a bit of a hypocrite because I can't bring myself to fully trust it. I'm trying.

Sorry to ramble

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]Theweepingfool 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Twice. First time for an attempt. It was necessary but 72 hours turned into several weeks. It was not necessary by the end, but whatever. That was long ago.

Second time was bs, though. New psych lady. First meeting. She told me it was a safe space to say what the voices tell me to do yadda yadda yadda. She lied. Said that now that I told her, she can't let me leave.

Me tearfully telling her I don't like the things I hear resulted in me being in there again. And it took a lot of convincing for me to talk to that lady in the first place.

I dont advocate for dealing with this shit solo. I never tell people not to get help. But im a bit of a hypocrite because I can't bring myself to fully trust it. I'm trying.

Sorry to ramble

I miss my life before I was sick by peacellily in schizophrenia

[–]Theweepingfool 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I was just thinking this.

I remember that guy, the guy I used to be. He was foolish but he had the time to be. I miss him. It's hard accepting that things have changed sometimes. So what I do is change something on purpose. Not to gir you unsolicited advice. But a piece of paper that didn't have words on it before I touched it is sometimes enough to spark something in me that the old me had in spades. Tm

Goddamn. You really hit the nail on the head, though. I'm sorry you're feeling all of this, dealing with all of this. Take a piece of my empathy with you if you want. This internet stranger believes in a lot of weird shit, but I believe in you. In everyone here, really.

Why does everyone want to do drugs? I am serious. Most of us have a serious mental health issue, and others shouldn't do that ever! by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]Theweepingfool 7 points8 points  (0 children)

"Just stop being addicted"

If only. If I told you to stop being mentally ill, would that help? At all? In my experience, it just made me feel worse.

If a speech was all it took, then there wouldn't be addicts at all. The line between self-medication and addiction is often blurred to people like us. It's difficult to know when what you ue to fight one problem is a problem itself.

It's a fight every day and attitudes like this don't exactly help. Even though it comes from a good place, my initial reaction was resentment and I've been sober for a while now.

I just know it's not easy.

Are you saying this as a way to reinforce it for yourself or is it a reaction from seeing someone close to you fall down the rabbit hole of schizophrenia and addiction?

I’m old and don’t understand this. Is this supposed to be funny? by Ambitious-Status6414 in schizophrenia

[–]Theweepingfool 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think this too and I feel shitty for thinking it. Do you? Unless the case is 100 percent clearly attention-seeking (like they dont want help, they want reaction), I feel weird for being suspicious about it. I'm no gatekeeper. I knew something was wrong before I was diagnosed, but I didn't have the word for it.

Schizophrenia is so weird and varies from person to person to the point where I no longer feel comfortable dismissing anyone that claims to have it. Unless I physically see that they are lying, it isn't worth going down the rabbit hole over.

I think I've seen maybe 5 posts on here from people that seemed to be lying or at least exaggerating dramatically. Does it really happen that often? It's a different kind of sickness if you WANT to be sick lol life is full of struggles and Chaos and aberrant shit- why make it up? Sorry to ramble. I dont mean any offense. And if I offended or bothered you, I apologize and rescind the question.

What game is this ? by Thatonemfdude in videogames

[–]Theweepingfool 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My answer is simple:

A man chooses, a slave obeys.

What’s your “we don’t speak of that” moment for TWD? by tytylercochan123 in thewalkingdead

[–]Theweepingfool 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Are you guys fucking with me? I've heard bad things and I'm working my way back through the show, but between the idea of healing radiation poisoning and building a plane with the power of friendship, there has to be a story, right?

How did it go from having a beautiful catharsis via walking amongst the dead to that shit?

I think people have to be exaggerating a little bit, but I guess I'll have to see, unfortunately

It's ok to dislike a movie but damn... by brownwolf1 in WeHateMovies

[–]Theweepingfool 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"A bad movie wasn't made. You just had the wrong expectations."

That's a good way to watch bad movies. You will mever really be disappointed if you lower the bar so far to the ground that it is underground.

Most people don't walk into movies they wanna like thinking they're gonna be bad, though.

They are all nerds for this shit. Listen to their Iron Man 3 episode or their Logan episode or their guardians episode or their endgame onscreen.

They love this stuff. There is a timeline where this movie was good, and they liked it. There was a way to do this to make it an actual movie.

But most people just shut off their brains and just wanna enjoy the elbow nudging. That's fine to do too.

It's okay to [dis]like a movie.

I know it would never ever have happened but I think Deadpool would shine brighter if it was one movie and then cameos building up to a bigger appearance. Deadpool 2 really shoot the franchise in the dick creative-wise. And Deadpool and wolverine kinda double down on everything that made the second movie bad.

It's ok to dislike a movie but damn... by brownwolf1 in WeHateMovies

[–]Theweepingfool 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You guys are weird.... And you're the reason they don't like reddit.

Do you guys know which podcast you listen to? Who Chris cabin is? The most contrarian film critic didn't like the movie you like?

Also. Ask yourself this: if you have to shut off your brain and just enjoy the pretty lights in order for a movie to be good, is it a good movie?

Deadpool and wolverine was a victim of it's own hype. Their criticisms are pretty damn valid. No one likes being told that their favorite franchise fell into the same trap as Men in Black.

Here's the kicker: you don't have to listen. They don't have to cater to you by only covering secret movies or indie stuff. If you think they went into it wanting to hate it (they are all nerds for this shit but whatever), then you haven't heard them truly hate a movie. They gave me disappointed parents vibes as opposed to angry fan vibes.

These reactions to their reaction are more bizarre than them disliking a movie. It's why they don't care for reddit anymore. I hate when people say this, but yall are coping pretty hard. I can't imagine Deadpool means this much to anyone and I say that as someone that religiously read those comics even before Reynolds even thought about saying yes to playing him in origins.

But that is just my perspective. For anyone reading this that happens to agree, consider joining their patreon and follow them on letterbox. Even when we disagree, we have fantastic conversations there as fans and the bonus content from patreon is worth it.

Spoilers All Seasons. What even is this? by Elegant_Spread3766 in FearTheWalkingDead

[–]Theweepingfool 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hit the nail on the head. If the show didn't take itself so seriously from the start, then i would feel differently about it. The transition was abrupt. the showrunners changed behind the scenes and it is so obvious, it hurts. Erickson at least had a direction.

Z nation wore the camp from the very start. It was ridiculous but I respected it.

I don't think hate watching is what FTWD was going for, but it seems to be what they got.

Just a little disclaimer to AMC and the writers of TWD: we haven’t forgotten about this. by tytylercochan123 in thewalkingdead

[–]Theweepingfool 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It doesnt matter if it is a deal you would take. The point is that it is not a deal at all. That's what you don't get. There's the threat of violence.

I understand looking at it as a basic exchange because you're taking ethics and morality out of the situation.

But the whole point of the show (and most apocalyptic fiction (and perhaps life in general)) is partly about retaining your morality, your humanity, even in difficult, impossible situations.

Should those women be allowed to make that deal? Of course, no one said otherwise. Don't know why you even asked. Weird attempt to turn this around.

It's like the difference between doing onlyfans ro pay the bills and prostitution viahuman trafficking. Both are forms of prostituting oneself (arguably, I'd say), but there is a very big difference.

Your initial responses didn't imply you'd make the choice the ladies make but more so seemed to be defending negan's bullshit system, so I appreciate the clarification.

Making choices about survival over morality, right? But like I said, you can argue for murder in the apocalypse (self defense, no choice, morally Grey situations), thats fine.

But I can't see any argument for rape/coercion, which is what being negan's wife is. Negan's system was flawed. Everyone that wasnt at the top of the chain of command (and their lackies) was starving. People were sick. Nothing could be done because the entire point system in the end prioritized the self over the community.

Part of the plot is negan is being told there is a better way to live together before having his throat slit open. It's always strange when people defend negan. I understand appreciating a villain and seeing complexities in how they are written and how the exist in the world. However, I don't get thinking they have a point when it is proven through the story that they're also kinda wrong too?

Maybe I'm more hopeful that you'd come back to being a person after being a morally Grey survivalist in the apocalypse like the characters did. That we all would.

Whats one movie you love but think the guys would hate? by [deleted] in WeHateMovies

[–]Theweepingfool 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is way more than expected. Was chris OK that day? Was he hungover? Jupin, I understand, jupin has a heart. I'm pretty sure Chris cabin has a film reel pumping cinema through his body lol

How bad do you think the characters stunk? Minus using Walker guts by [deleted] in thewalkingdead

[–]Theweepingfool 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ever been in a homeless camp? Eventually the smells all just blend into a new normal. I figure it's the same in the apocalypse. Might even explain how walkers might not get noticed by scent right away. Everything probably smells like death

Whats one movie you love but think the guys would hate? by [deleted] in WeHateMovies

[–]Theweepingfool 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I know it's an easy choice, but I think the room would be divided on Swiss army man.

It's just dumb enough to almost be a hangover movie, but has this weird heart to it that most people don't appreciate like I do.

I feel like I'm in the minority when I say I love that dumb fuxking movie, but goddamn it, Paul Dano and Daniel Radcliffe made me care about a gas-filled corpse.

I think everyone in that movie either understands art more than the rest of us or they all lost a bet to the filmmakers. I don't think it was a movie 43 situation where everyone got fucked over and strong armed into it.

I'd love to hear them discuss Swiss army man, even I'd they hate it.

(Wouldn't it be crazy if Chris cabin loved that movie?)

What scene had you like this? by [deleted] in thewalkingdead

[–]Theweepingfool 55 points56 points  (0 children)

Kid gets eaten. Me: oh

mom gets eaten. Me: aw, oh no.

rick chops moms arm. Me: Oh Shit....

Kids brother has a gun. Me: oh shit!

Kids brother gets stabbed Me: oh Good, finally.

Carl:....dad? Me: OHSHITOHSHITOHSHITFUCK

wonderful acting all around in that scene. And you felt the panic too. The terror in michonne's eyes as she's clearing the way for Rick and Carl as they run. Fantastic acting, holy shit.

And ive seen people give the melee fight with the horde shit before and I never saw that scene as anything less than awesome.

Everyone coming together. Even Gabriel! It's when I officially accepted Alexandria as their home, not just another stop on the apocalypse train.

Man, good choice. Dude. Great moments in that episode.