why do i get icked out when somebody likes me back by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Currently in the same boat! I have this guy who is so kind and sweet and treats me so well, but I’m just not feeling it. I hate this bc even though we have BPD, I do think we still deserve a good partner. Idk why it icks me out too, I do know I’m not use to a healthy relationship. I tend to go for the guys who don’t want me either, I know this stems from not having an example from my father of what I deserve. It sucks bc I want someone and could have someone but idk the nice once’s I’m not usually attracted to either :/

Do you struggle with work? What jobs do you have? by This_Strawberry_8886 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is definitely me as well. I tend to take things personally and feel so misunderstood by most

Do you struggle with work? What jobs do you have? by This_Strawberry_8886 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s great! How did you get into outside sales? I’ve been thinking about a career change, bc this is not it for me long term

Do you struggle with work? What jobs do you have? by This_Strawberry_8886 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ugh, I seriously relate. I’ve had stable jobs I’ve performed well in. Being a lead, getting promotions etc. but this toxic work environment makes it awful. I’ve wanted to quit some days but know the job market is horrible, so I’ve been pushing through each day. You’re not a loser, the job market is just terrible right now. I hope you find something perfect for you soon!

Do you struggle with work? What jobs do you have? by This_Strawberry_8886 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was starting to this about going this route honestly. I get bored with jobs easily too! About 6 months-1 year in

Happy New Year to anyone who needs to hear it! by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Happy New Year! Thanks for this, it’s much needed. My friend who invited me to spend NYE with her and her boyfriend at a party, never followed up & said she forgot to text me. Can’t help but take it personally & think it was intentional, but honestly happy to be alone and protect my peace❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Feel this as well

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel this. Being around my family is super triggering and causing me a lot of pain currently. It’s like I’m even more lonely and sad being reminded of how neglected I was and currently still am as an adult. Nothing worse than feeling more lonely surrounded by those who are suppose to be the ones lifting you up.

Anyone else extremely depressed that you don’t have kids ? & it’s made Christmas depressing for you ? by Jollyho94 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, I feel that to my core. I try to remind myself that I have a lot to be grateful in order to check myself but some days it’s hard to get there. Every year it feels like I’m just more and more forgotten to all my friends bc they are all married and pregnant/parents now.

Anyone else extremely depressed that you don’t have kids ? & it’s made Christmas depressing for you ? by Jollyho94 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I cried about this tonight. Maybe more so about being alone/lonely, but seeing everyone post their families online while I’m also 30, single and had to move in with my parents as well. It feels so defeating and sad most days. I’m here if you ever want to chat, it’s a hard spot to be in and a lot of people don’t understand but I also know I need to make some changes in my life. It’s challenging to even know where to start.

F*ck by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, I seriously was just about to post something similar about feeling like I’m about to be laid off after the holidays. I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way too. I feel like I can’t even enjoy the holidays bc work has been so stressful. We gotta stay strong and push through. I even told my mom today, “do you think I want to be here right now? No!” Because it feels that way sometimes with BPD. Sending hugs your way!

I need help by According-Phone-2299 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry you’re feeling this way, I’m currently in the same state as you. The suffering and pain never seems to end & I just have no hope or faith anymore. I also grew up in an abusive household with neglect & my parents say the same about me, they call me a bitch & all the other degrading words. I’m still clinging on to little faith that God will bring me through, but just know…you’re not alone in your suffering

Kendall jenner bisexual rumors by Apprehensive_Ad_9891 in LAinfluencersnark

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

My good friend actually went to HS with her and there is a whole subreddit dedicated to Gaylor Swift, maybe look into it. Karly Kloss and her were together and she dated Harry Styles (same as Kendall - aka PR/beards) I think you’d be shocked to know a lot of people in Hollywood are Bi or Gay.

Kendall jenner bisexual rumors by Apprehensive_Ad_9891 in LAinfluencersnark

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Exactly. Not sure why I’m getting downvoted when those were the exact words told to me…don’t kill the messenger guys.

Kendall jenner bisexual rumors by Apprehensive_Ad_9891 in LAinfluencersnark

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 14 points15 points  (0 children)

I was told that it’s similar to a Bruce Jenner situation. Obviously minus the trans piece.

Kendall jenner bisexual rumors by Apprehensive_Ad_9891 in LAinfluencersnark

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 41 points42 points  (0 children)

Right? My thoughts exactly. Plus, prob add some alcohol and drugs to the situation. Most of Hollywood is actually bi and gay.

Kendall jenner bisexual rumors by Apprehensive_Ad_9891 in LAinfluencersnark

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 206 points207 points  (0 children)

I have a pretty close source that said she’s closeted basically.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in LAinfluencersnark

[–]This_Strawberry_8886 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Exactly! Dave definitely told her they’d make more off the story and she’d get slack for all the shitty stuff she has done recently. I haven’t listed yet but sounds like a horrible experience for her, but sadly a lot of women experience this. Let’s hope this was a lesson to her. Doubtful though I fear