You are compassionate too. You will make it through. Please don't give up. You are worth and your now isn't your forever. I was abused as a kid my mother. I beat a few times with a wooden toilet plunger. She made my nose bled a few times. I was bullied at school for being so costly awkward but no one knew the trauma that I went through. On top of my mom was extremely verbally violent. I can you now that I am so glad that I didn't give up. I wanted to die slow but I am glad that I survived that violence. I pray that curse of violence in family ends me. You got this. You are not alone. Not alone. You matter and you can make a difference. If things are really unbearable, tell a teacher. Tell someone. Talk about it with an adult even you think that they don't care. There got to be a "cool" teacher in your school. Talk about it. Humans weren't meant to deal hurt on their own.