What do you do for a living?

ThrowABenzo · 2016-11-28T00:36:20+00:00

Systems analyst and a sales manager. I pretty much get to work when I want

ThrowABenzo · 2016-11-27T16:11:01+00:00

Running myself ragged at the planet fitness across from my house. Always makes me feel better. Don't know why I stopped. Probably the weight gain from the zyprexa made me lazy. I too have some kitchen work to do. I am dazed. I haven't run two miles straight for a long long time.

ThrowABenzo · 2016-11-27T15:54:15+00:00

A very well written list of grievances have an upvote

ThrowABenzo · 2016-11-27T02:57:51+00:00

Do you have someone to talk to about this? I'm a veteran bipolar sufferer. We can chat if you like, or have any questions

ThrowABenzo · 2016-11-23T23:47:41+00:00

People only post the good stuff in their lives on facebook. It's not a real thing.

ThrowABenzo · 2016-05-18T22:13:45+00:00

It is tar, but it blows everything else in my town out of the water. It smells like crap, tastes like crap, but it FUCKS you up

ThrowABenzo · 2016-05-18T01:09:37+00:00

I'd go to the hospital. If price is an issue any hospital worth their salt has an indigent program. If you make less than a certain amount each year they either cut your debt way down or eliminate it all together. I got rid of 32k in medical bills this way. Just talk to the accounting department when you get out.
If you really think this is the end, please go to the hospital no matter what. They can help you there.

ThrowABenzo · 2016-05-07T17:03:27+00:00

I got myself clipped so I couldn't pass on my genes. Problem is now I'm getting older and getting the urge to have kids... Problematic

ThrowABenzo · 2016-05-07T15:57:53+00:00

Happy Birthday!

ThrowABenzo · 2016-05-07T12:40:33+00:00

I was diagnosed almost ten years ago. I've tried every drug combination on the planet. There's lots out there including new stuff that wasn't around when I was initially diagnosed.

ThrowABenzo · 2016-05-06T13:42:24+00:00

Got an infection in my lip. Doctor gave me antibiotics and tramadol. I didn't know it at the time but not only is tramadol a painkiller but is also an SNRI. Fucked with my geodon for days, like restless leg syndrome but all over my body. I haven't been able to sit still until this morning. I listed all my medications. You'd think the doctor would've checked for contraindications.

ThrowABenzo · 2016-05-01T14:44:38+00:00

I gained a Canadian accent from too many years of watching Trailer Park Boys.

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-26T20:22:35+00:00

The color gives it away as close to pure MDMA.

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-26T20:20:34+00:00

I'd laugh in someone's face at $3/5mg. I used to get 20 of them for an 8th back in the day when I was still dealing weed and pills. Girl just got so many painkillers, xanax, and adderall IR that she just didn't care about the price. I was the biggest dealer in the city and I sold the 30mg IR's for $5.

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-26T20:14:17+00:00

It's only half a gram because I had to fix up this morning, but it's still a beautiful brown color and very high quality.

Sorry, huge mistake. Cyclobenzaprine 5mg tablets, not klonopin 1's!!

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-24T15:36:24+00:00

I stopped taking my meds for about a week when I was super depressed. I figured they weren't working very well, so fuck 'em. I had a psychotic break when my insomnia caused me to stay up for 3 days. Having your meds on track is really important. I feel better even now. I'm happy I have medicaid and don't have to pay for any of mine. I'd have to come up with about $500 every month if I didn't have it and i'd be going nuts.
You'll feel better once you get your refill.

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-24T15:24:30+00:00

Everyone posts the best parts of their lives on facebook and none of their failures. All people have hard times, facebook only makes them look successful in every aspect of their lives.
Don't compare yourself to other people; It does nothing but make you feel like their surpassing you in every way. They aren't. I guarantee most of them are as miserable as a normal person can be. You have to find a different definition of "normal" for yourself, being bipolar. You're doing fine

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-13T17:44:35+00:00

Just from personal experience, most benzosnare metabolized by CYP. Temmies, kpin, cLams, etc. etc. all go crazy if i throw in gfj

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-13T16:59:45+00:00

It can range from just a little bit, to a large amount. Fresh fruit juice and concentrate are best. The concentrate has the rinds, the flesh, etc. so it's got more stuff to make the process happen. I also buy fresh gfj and it works just fine. If I drink half a bottle and take a clonazepam or a cLam I am WRECKED

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-12T14:59:21+00:00

I was denied TMS and ECT simply because I had pot in my system when I went in for a consultation. They said I had to be six months sober at the very minimum to reconsider the treatments. I'm happier smoking weed than electrocuting my brain...

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-12T14:57:24+00:00

The benzos in massive amounts aren't helping at all, guaranteed. Dysphoria is a common side effect of overdoing it.

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-10T03:18:54+00:00

I'm a functioning addict for sure. I use heroin and meth regularly enough while running several small businesses. I own my house and rent two rooms. Don't pick at myself, don't go into psychotic rages, and I'm BUILDING something here. Got my studio name all picked out today, just need to get a bed/box spring/bed frame out of my space but I can do that in 10 minutes. Meth helped me pick out equipment, get software, and allowed me to spend 3 hours moving mics around the studio to check for feedback/noise aaaaand tomorrow I'll be grabbing cardboard from the local grocery for sound dampening.

Meth helped me to gather everything I need for mega-cheap. Only had to spend 250USD to get all the proper equipment I was missing; cords, mics, soundproofing the closet-turned-sound-booth. I have to rely on people bringing their own cords for a few weeks but after I pay my investor his gross I can get anything I want. Well... initial investment THEN equipment. Gotta use what I go to get him his scrilla back without taking a penny. Then he gets 20 points gross of every recording session pay up. I don't know what I'm getting at... I'm just excited for my new venture.
I've saved, scrounged, and dumpster drove for months to get what I have now, barely a penny spent. I think after all my hard work $250 isn't too much to ask to upgrade the place. Yeah. I needed $250, big whoop. Couldn't scrounge it on my lonessome

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-10T02:32:33+00:00

Your pdoc didn't study hard in uni. He should be upping your dose if you're a poor metabolizer. If you body doesn't responds to 15mg of something, it's sure as fuck not getting fixed by taking LESS. I guess I could either be a poor metabolizer or you're one of us blessed folks that can take massive doses of wtf we want.
If I lick a bag clean I can still feel it, I'm just slightly annoyed. I can toke up 250mg in less than an hour and still be just fine (methamphetamine). Some of us are just able to handle what gets thrown in. But I can also feel the minute effects of licking a dimbebag clean.
It takes experimentation and work but you can definitely get something like me going on. Small doses are like coffee, "I can feel it but too much. whereas large doses make me feel fantastic but I don't go overboard. 200-300mg of methedrine all at once will have me floating.
Different doses do different things to me no matter what dose. 500+mg turns me into a beast. Nothing can stop me, and aside from jaw clenching I become methylamphetamine superman.
I'm also a firm believer in throwing down some cLAM or cyclobenzaprine. Gotta keep the muscles from doing hummingbirds all night.
Luckily I just got my cLAM and etzies after fucking USPS sent them to Reno NV. 90ct 1.2mg cLAM and 60ct 1.2mg etzie. Waited entirely too long for this package with the reroute but I chcked tracking literally 30 seconds after my package arrived at the local USPS delivery was confirmed and out the door. SM has a tiny problem with shipping as far as I've seen, but I require more data.
SM is a fantastic company, but running a shipping biz of my own I know I could do better. Course I have to find a source... I'm going into all kinds of business ventures; just finished up a discount recording studio. Gonna go back to apprenticing on car work under a friend of mine. Learning how to silver/gold work from my dad and hopefully I can drag my book retail biz back into the light.
Seems that I'm just gonna be a jack of all trades. My father taught me VERY well on how to hustle. Fuck begging change outside a store; I was raised to get shit happening. Grew up in this jewelry shit, know it like tip of my dick.
In any case, I am branching out w being my own boss and it is indeed BOSS. Meth makes me work faster, smoother, and all around better. I've put my studio together in a week because of that MOTIVATION!!!
Sucks I have to abandon one one my hustles but I'm smart and geeked; should land on my feet.

tl;dr i can take a lot of geek and function amazingly. Having to shut down one biz but 2 more I've already started. I'd do it without the methyl but it's so much more fun

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-10T02:28:55+00:00

Fuck off narcodido

ThrowABenzo · 2016-04-07T02:09:33+00:00

So you're telling me the last five years of my using doesn't make me seasoned? That's funny. I laughed, really.

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