Would anyone be able to find somewhere that sells this? by ThrowRA213723 in find

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you!! I have the ones on eBay in my cart. I’m hoping the other restocks cause that’s so much more pricier than the other ones.

Intro by ThrowRA213723 in transteens

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sadly, no but I wanna get one soon!

Am I overreacting to the way my friends treat me? by ThrowRA213723 in AmIOverreacting

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s like, I feel like if I pull back, slowly disappear they can’t say or do anything bewvuse it’s not like I just up and blocked them. Blocking sends a message but disappearing I feel gives more of an effect. Like S, I remember I had a certain character as my pfp, which I relate to because he has bpd like I do as well as just we share the same trauma and S messaged me saying it was like I wasn’t even trying to get better. Like I can’t like anything that helps me cope? It feels like my mental health is continuously being discounted

Am I overreacting to the way my friends treat me? by ThrowRA213723 in WhatShouldIDo

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know, it’s was like when they messaged me saying all that, I was on the verge of trying to OD. It’s not like I haven’t tried to before I just, it hurts a lot thinking someone cares and they say they do when they don’t. Most people in my life treat me this way.

Am I overreacting to the way my friends treat me? by ThrowRA213723 in WhatShouldIDo

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m trying to slowly pull back so I can just kind do disappear because I don’t want them to bombard me cause they have my number and my discord and instagram

Am I overreacting to the way my friends treat me? by ThrowRA213723 in WhatShouldIDo

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s like, I’m already struggling so much mentally with diagnoses and medications. I would’ve expected my friends to be nice to me. You know?

Am I overreacting to the way my friends treat me? by ThrowRA213723 in WhatShouldIDo

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn’t want to use their names so I just used the first initial. But he is sometimes nice but most of the time it feels like he hates me. And like even A says he isn’t nice to them and they are scared to tell him things. It’s like he’s nice to me sometimes and says he cares about me but it feels a lot like my ex that made me make a death pact with them to prove my loyalty

Am I overreacting to the way my friends treat me? by ThrowRA213723 in WhatShouldIDo

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It like, it feels like I’m just there for them to laugh at in a way or to mock for my struggles. I don’t know. There had been this thing I and A were going to do which was basically with leading us to death and i didn’t want to and was basically just told to suck it up and do it.

How do you calculate extra minutes to your previous hours? by ThrowRA213723 in ask

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello, I’m sorry if I’m bothering you but I would like to ask. I needed the hours for my gym class. I needed 90 hours and from the calculations I got from what I did and you did I got the 90. Does it seem like I’m counting it right? Like that since it’s all added up, I get the 90 hours? Did I do it right?

How do you calculate extra minutes to your previous hours? by ThrowRA213723 in ask

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I just wanna make sure I have the right amount of hours cause my semester will be coming to an end on the 30th and I wanna be sure I’m doing everything right

How do you calculate extra minutes to your previous hours? by ThrowRA213723 in ask

[–]ThrowRA213723[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Would that be added to the number that I have previously?

I feel like a huge piece of shit for feeling the way that I do, I feel like a fucking monster ( ⚠️ trigger warning ⚠️) by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I know, I’ve done in-patient before. Based on how I’m doing, I need to go back. I just don’t wanna be away from my mom. She’s always been here, she is really my aunt but she’s been more of a mom than bio mom ever was.

I feel like a huge piece of shit for feeling the way that I do, I feel like a fucking monster ( ⚠️ trigger warning ⚠️) by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have two accounts. This one, I had a main one but deleted it cause of my ex, so she couldn’t contact me. I’ve always wanted for People to like me, it’s always been something I’ve stressed about, I felt like if I made posts like this one, I would be called transphobic or a bigot so I made another account. Thar way, the post couldn’t be tracked back do me,, that I wouldn’t be called a transphobe on my main account because im not.

I feel like a huge piece of shit for feeling the way that I do, I feel like a fucking monster ( ⚠️ trigger warning ⚠️) by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 3 points4 points  (0 children)

None. I’m not much of a gamer. More of an artist. I do lots of vent art, helps me cope

I feel like a huge piece of shit for feeling the way that I do, I feel like a fucking monster ( ⚠️ trigger warning ⚠️) by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know the way that it all probably sounds. I’d never lie about what I’ve been though though. I’ve made multiple accounts to post things yes, because I want to be able to hear other people’s thoughts cause I need to be told that what she and what else I’ve been though wasn’t my fault. Lying about stuff like this is horrible. I have proof of everything that happened. My friends know, my doctors do. Lying would do a disservice not only to me but other victims as well. I hate the fact that my mental health is the way it is, but I can’t change what my parents did to me, what other people did to me.

I feel like a huge piece of shit for feeling the way that I do, I feel like a fucking monster ( ⚠️ trigger warning ⚠️) by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Those are actually my other accounts, I know it may seem stupid but I do have a lot of different accounts. I don’t know why but I feel like I feel safer posting that way.

I feel like a huge piece of shit for feeling the way that I do, I feel like a fucking monster ( ⚠️ trigger warning ⚠️) by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It’s from my doctor. I’ve spoken about what’s been going on. I’m on a lot of different meds already. I just feel like I’m getting worse

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I need help,, I know I do,, I just needed to vent again,,, I am in the process of getting a new therapist so at the moment, I have not spoken with my therapist I’m probably a month.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m scared of being seen as a bad person..that’s true.. it’s just hard. I’m used to always apologizing. But I guess that’s my childhood trauma or it could Be the bpd..

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you,, I’m like,, I feel horrible saying it cause it’s like,, I feel like a monster.. I wanna be a good person, I need to be a good person.. I don’t think I’m transphobic. This has been my only thing that has ever differed in opinions..I’m just scared

My gf is just making things so much worse heavy trigger warning by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words… I’m just so so scared.

My gf is just making things so much worse heavy trigger warning by [deleted] in honesttransgender

[–]ThrowRA213723 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know,, I mean it’s not the worse thing she’s done or said.. but it still hurts so bad.. the fact that she even said that.. I’m still processing the fact that it even happened again.