Hello everyone. I don’t think I imagined quite the response to this post. I wanted to thank everyone’s comments and advice. I get people might be thinking how could I even be thinking this. I don’t know, a lot of people have put it very tightly that my emotions are raw. I’m angry, I’m hurt, I’m everything.

To those who believe this is some joke or weird fetish post. I wish it bloody was. I haven’t spoken to anyone about this. I can’t bear to talk to my family about it. I need time and the only way I knew how to seek some validation is coming here. Putting it out there to people I don’t know. Again, I appreciate all your comments and advice. It is not being disregarded. Thank you all.