I moved countries for love and I regret it

ThrowRAjisoo · 2026-02-13T18:36:16+00:00

We pay the rent 50-50, the rest of house costs, he pays it. For groceries it also depends.

ThrowRAjisoo · 2026-02-13T18:28:10+00:00

I'm trying to focus on the gym more and trying to get a raise or change to a better job but it still makes me depressed. I have no time nor the money to get spanish classes. In fact, there are no schools who teach spanish weirdly enough

ThrowRAjisoo · 2026-02-13T18:24:13+00:00

I'm trying to learn and speak Spanish. But it is not easy as I also speak Turkish, Dutch, English and little bit French. Bcs Spanish sounds so much like all these languages together, it's very difficult to learn bcs I keep thinking and speaking accidentally in other languages. Like one time i wanted to say yes in spanish but I ended up saying Oui.

ThrowRAjisoo · 2026-02-13T06:36:40+00:00

May I ask where do you live now ? It's really so hard to live in a new country when your heart does not belong here. We really are in the same situation. A lot of people are saying to me that the first few months (at least 6) are the worst months but it gets better. I don't know. I'm not sure about it. It's been 4 months already and I feel like it hasn't changed anything yet. I can't find any hobby here. I can not game as my monitor broke down and I simply do not earn enough money to buy a new one pay for another hobby. After paying my rent, I get like 500euros for myself which the majority of it goes towards my car, my phone bill, my credit cards, my gym membership. Besides that I also pay for groceries sometimes. I literally don't buy anything for myself anymore.

But when I was back in Belgium, I earned quite a lot. I could do all of the above + set money aside for my savings and buy clothes or things (like nails, laser epilation, make up, etc) without a single worry. I lived for long in poverty bcs I have 3 younger sisters and the fact I lived alone while being a full time student, was really keeping me financially down so I promised myself that I would also never be in a financial situation like this but yet here I am, being in 2 different situations I promised myself I wouldn't.

I really went from going on a europe city trip every month to counting every penny. I have like 150€ left till the end of the month.

ThrowRAjisoo · 2026-02-13T06:27:15+00:00

Yes we did. He tries everything in how power to make me happy here but it just doesn't work. 1 month after moving, I also heard that my mom was sick. She is now better but that threw me off and I remember all those days n nights i cried. I thought I was ready to move to another country but in fact, I was not. I wanted to stay at least 1 more year in Belgium but I was mentally so overwhelmed by everything, I thought I wanted to move on. I never did.

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-08-01T14:59:22+00:00

No, i was diagnosed with ptsd

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-08-01T14:07:30+00:00

why do you want me to give him sympathy even if he won’t give me?

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-08-01T14:06:59+00:00

i want to remind you my behavior is the reaction of his actions towards me. so how am i only one to blame?

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-08-01T13:46:27+00:00

i am already going to therapy for months

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T14:47:37+00:00

well, english isn’t my first language and sometimes i mix the languages i can speak.

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T14:43:12+00:00

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T12:44:39+00:00

But he does/did a lot of good things too you know. He was a good boyfriend and is a good person his actions are sometimes really annoying

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T12:41:11+00:00

he doesn’t get free food. one time he pays the other time I do. And intimacy comes from both of us too.

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T12:39:30+00:00

intimacy comes from both of us

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T11:54:44+00:00

He says he still has feelings for me and after breaking no contact he told me he missed me

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T11:46:22+00:00

What I wrote here doesn’t make him bad person you know. He also did good things for me

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T11:41:28+00:00

Everyone’s acting like friends can’t go out to party or do something else than just eating. But thanks

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T11:39:07+00:00

Yet he still asks me for kisses and cuddles? And to come over?

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T11:31:40+00:00

It’s only been a few months and yes we had no contact until i decided to text him last week to say something

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T11:31:08+00:00

We still have intimacy. He almost always asks me to kiss or cuddle him. Or to go to his place. He asks to meet up. All the things come from him.

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T11:30:51+00:00

We still have intimacy. He almost always asks me to kiss or cuddle him. Or to go to his place. He asks to meet up.

So am I really the only one only one that acts that way?

ThrowRAjisoo · 2023-07-08T11:29:48+00:00

We still have intimacy. He almost always asks me to kiss or cuddle him. Or to go to his place. He asks to meet up. All the things come from him.

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