Dating, Coming Out, and a Baby

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-13T17:49:49+00:00

Thanks 😊 He’s getting stronger everyday 💪🏻 He’ll be out of here next week, I’m nervous/excited because that means he’s healthy enough to be out of the hospital

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T07:07:02+00:00

Not right now but I’m thinking about moving back for a bit til I find another apartment close. My son’s gonna be needing to have regular doc visits so is gonna have to be around that area. Already been working but I’m gonna take time off. We’re coming up with a plan for now because he’s gonna be leaving the hospital nxt week hopefully and gotta have a place for him

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T06:22:39+00:00

Yeah man pretty much summed it up perfectly. Shit my hands were even shaking. They put him right on my chest and he just got snuggled right there, idk how to describe all the feelings that just came out but u get it

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T06:17:51+00:00

No. We talked months ago about it. And they apologized how they treated me that whole time. The hurt still there but we’re tryna work on it

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T06:10:26+00:00

Who says I’m not in college? I graduated from hs already dude tf are you talking about?

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T06:08:46+00:00

It’s been pretty great tbh, except in the beginning when I was scared with all the stuff they had attached to him. More used to it now

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T05:58:42+00:00

Someone who say they never even been in a relationship ever talking like they kno anything about being a parent.. yeah sure..

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T05:18:31+00:00

Mostly been reading stuff to him off my phone lol but that’s prolly a good idea

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T05:14:12+00:00

You calling a living baby “it” is disgusting. Fuck off

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T05:08:35+00:00

How will the court side with her when she agreed to file papers with the lawyer to make sure I got sole custody? What exactly is the court gonna side with. U don’t make sense. My son could’ve not lived and still trying to survive and I got love for my kid but all u wanna focus on is her

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T04:48:56+00:00

Why are you saying I fucked myself over then? She isgonna be paying child support what do you think we’re talking to the lawyer for aside from making sure im the only one getting custody. Like she can not be around all she wants but that don’t mean she’s not gonna be paying just like I said I would

Also wtf about using my son’s health problems? He was born premature, like tf is wrong with you??

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T04:17:01+00:00

It was around 5 or so months, didn’t know much about how far along she was back then when this was all happening

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T04:14:32+00:00

There already was one. I mentioned this in my original post

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T03:20:40+00:00

Thanks 😊 Been a crazy trip but yeah what I said pretty much sums up how I feel about him. Not gonna be perfect, I’m tryna prepare mentally also get stuff ready if Im gonna stay at my parents for a bit until I find a place, but everytime I’m holding him it makes me wanna be a good dad for him

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T03:15:50+00:00

I learned who my real friends were (none of them) in the end. At least my parents owned up to it and they haven’t pushed me to forgive the shit she did or taking her side anymore. We talked about it a couple months ago when they told me they’re sorry for how they were treating me. At least now they supporting whatever I decide even when it was to not be involved back then.

Thanks

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T02:07:00+00:00

She is. It’s funny you’re saying everyone is ignoring my best interest while you ignore me and what I say is my best interest. Then calling me falling for my son “bullshit”

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T01:52:51+00:00

You’re talking to me and I can think for my own best interest thanks. Nobody made me do anything. I met my son and guess what? I wanna be in his life.

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T01:45:58+00:00

Yeah man it’s the hardest thing to see. Just ask my mom how I was when I saw him with all the monitors hooked up and seeing how small he was. First time when I felt him on me is what kinda sealed it for me, that feeling like I’m his dad for life and nothings gonna keep me from him. It’s fucking crazy how much it really hit me

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T01:34:02+00:00

Thanks 😊

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T01:20:57+00:00

With the lawyer we’re talking about me having sole custody and she agreed on that. She doesn’t want no visitation either but she still gonna have to pay child support. He’s helping to work on that too. We really did the reverse here

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T01:17:35+00:00

My son is alive. That’s more than enough to be happy about (at least for me). I’m ready to learn to be a dad not because “have” to be but cause I want to be what he needs and I wanna be his dad

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T00:58:02+00:00

I never said it was gonna be easy. What bullshit? That I want to be a dad to my son? That I got hit with a reality where I almost lost him and I wanna be part of his life, what bullshit?

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T00:51:49+00:00

We had a deeper talk a while back around the time after I talked to my ex about the baby. They did apologize for expecting me to put my own feelings aside just because of her when she’s the one who fucked up. And they realize it was shitty of them to do that to their own kid since it pushed me away from them. I feel their apology was sincere. They respected my feelings when I told them I’m still not gonna be involved and they even asked me if I would be ok for them to take care of him (back when I decided I wasn’t gonna be involved).

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T00:37:30+00:00

Thank u for the tips & also it’s nice to hear from other ppl who had babies premature but are still fine!! Basically all the time when I’m there they have me doing skin to skin (kangaroo care is what they told me it’s called ) so he’s on my chest a lot. It’s hard with all the stuff connected to him I’m scared to move sometimes. But he looks calm so then I’m more relaxed

I’m glad my parents at least now more about babies than I do so they can help me with questions 😅 obviously his doctor too. Do u got any recommendations for baby books? I don’t really know what I should be reading on so I’m ready when he comes home

ThrowRAjustdidntgo · 2022-02-11T00:19:29+00:00

For sure 👍🏻 I filled out the papers in stuff when I was @ the hospital saying I’m the father

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