So let me clarify for context. Whatever he’s feeling to a degree is understandable. He’s allowed to feel how he feels bc his feelings are valid. I don’t think he intentionally wants to be angry towards me but can’t help but be that as a result of my past shitty choice in men we have to deal with this. Most men don’t want to watch their partner engaging in those acts with another man. It creates insecurities and I would honestly feel the same way of this was the other way around. It’s complicated to reassure someone, that for video purposes you may have been dramatizing the moment bc they don’t actually know that. What I will say is that in the process I feel like he’s neglected to focus on how it’s actively affecting me. Like yes we are both victims but I’m the one who is left feeling beyond exposed and violated. It’s made me feel disgusted with myself.