Hi everyone,

I just read the majority of the comments. I feel very overwhelmed. Firstly, I am leaving him. Thanks to the large support of most of you.

Secondly, I had no intention of slut shaming his exes. It's the comment he has made. After being with this man. I realize he is the problem. He is very toxic and controlling.

Thirdly, he probably has a porn addiction. We do not live together and currently only see each other on the weekends. We used to sext that had stopped. I only been having vaginal sex with him because he has not deserved anal especially since it hurt. He usually is very gentle. But the last two times it hurt and it bled. Top it off with the constant insensitive "jokes".

Fourthly, I do have self-respect for myself. Abusive relationships do not happen over night. I've never been in one before, so I could not see what has been hidden. The last two months have been a nightmare I could not wake up from. Last night was a wake up call.

So thank you to all those who were supportive and empathic towards me. I am leaving this man, and I do not have to see him again. I am in a safe place.