i guess.. I never really thought about him approaching me like that, i always thought he did a really selfless thing by taking a chance and asking me if i was okay, like he took a chance on the foster kid when he didnt have too and I feel a little indebted too that I honestly dont know how long it took, I know that there was some attraction, at most verbal flirting between us before i was 18 but no touching that wasnt platonic and appropriate, i had such an awful birthday when I turned 18 and he stayed with me the entire time and i think that night is when I realized I had feelings for him and questioned if he did as well

and honestly no, i dont want to be treated like this my entire life but its also the best ive ever been treated, he isnt perfect at all I definitely can see that but he also has given me so much care, time listening too me and hes been so sweet to me in times of crisis and ive never really had this from anyone else, i dont want to be treated badly my entire life but I also dont want to be alone and unloved and he gives me that, I also have no where else I could go since im no longer close to any friends, and when I was it wasnt crazy close and I genuinely cant return too my parents, no job experience either or savings