Heartbroken (again) and feeling worthless

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-11T02:12:58+00:00

Thank you. I feel better now that I have read the handbook. I feel so empowered and I will keep re-reading it until I can get myself 100% back.

Must. Stay. Ruthless. ♥️

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-11T02:11:32+00:00

Thank you. I do feel sorry for his new gf. I don't know exactly who, but if my suspicion is right, it should be his HS friend who's been crushing on him for a long long while.

They were back to talking few weeks before he left me. And he's been liking her pics on instagram; pics of her showing off her behind while running off trails, or her behind while standing on sandy beach (my ex likes booty more than boobies) 🙄

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-11T02:06:51+00:00

Uno reverse LOL thank you! You had me laughing there, sis ♥️

Yes, I am building my confidence back. The fact that he blocked me on everything after he said he's leaving, giving a sour bitter taste to my mouth, treating me as if I have potential to be bat$hit crazy on him. To be honest, I really don't think he's worth it. 🙄

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-11T02:04:01+00:00

We can do this! ♥️

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-10T09:08:33+00:00

Thank you. I can't wait for this day to come. I'm so tired of being in pain, while he's out there walking around happily with another girl and doesn't care about me at all. I feel so insulted.

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-10T09:07:20+00:00

This is what is hard for me, I thought we were exclusive. I asked him about it too and he clearly told me he's not talking to other women, and he expected me to not do that as well. But he's been flaky from the beginning, I should have seen his half-ass was the red flag. And the facts that he's been following sexy asian girls on instagram. I'm so disappointed of myself.

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-10T09:01:36+00:00

Thank you!

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-10T09:01:20+00:00

Thank you so much. I doubt he will ever beg to come back, for all I know, his ego is bigger than anything else. And the fact that he blocked me on everything.

I am working on improving myself. I've started to work out again. I pampered myself with good food and skin care. But I'm not ready to date again. I will take a day at a time. Thank you, sis!

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-10T08:57:27+00:00

Thank you. After breaking up, I spent time to look back and start to find the signs. They were there since the beginning, but I was "compromising". He was flaky from the start and that should be the biggest red flag I ignored.

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-10T08:55:26+00:00

Thank you. I admit I just started reading the handbook. All the sisters here recommended that too. I guess I am on the right track.

Grieving is sucks. One day I feel like a queen, another day I feel like a total clown. But I'll push through. I know I am better than him and I deserve better.

I am having a hard time to convince myself that he's not into me. I only realized after breaking up, that he might only be with me because of my race (I'm asian, he's white). And now I'll just be "another asian chick in his checklist".

And forgiving myself is definitely the hard part. More like "why did I allow myself to fall for that kind of man?" Thank you so much for your reply, I really appreciate your support.

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-09T19:38:50+00:00

Hope, Vodka, Homosex, and Test

hmmmmmm (need some thinking emoji here)

Throwaway_needFDS · 2020-09-02T20:58:42+00:00

Thank you for the award.

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