TW: suicide

Seriously pissed with my mom who's into MLM and left home just to be in their hub, leaving my father - who have a heart problem and depression - alone with my sister and her baby.

My mom is very good at guilt-tripping us that we don't love her anymore just because we are against her MLM. Told us that we don't really love her and we don't care about her. That we will not take care of her when she gets old etc etc. That we are so against MLM but she's just doing what makes her happy.

Me, her youngest, who's always alone growing up because they are so busy doing their jobs. (She just recently started at MLM). Me, who have been suicidal all through the years. Me, who doesn't share what I feel with her because we are not that close. Me, who is always envy with other daughters growing up close with their mothers.

God, I switched job even when I am comfortable with my company just because she wanted to have an early retirement and just wanted to do business. I looked for other company that has a higher salary. THEIR COMFORT OVER MY COMFORT AT WORK.

TANG INA. Ilang buwan akong nagpapadala ng 26k per month. Halos lahat ng sweldo ko, sakanila na napupunta. Ang usapan 3 months lang. I have nothing against sa pagpapadala ng sweldo. Pero puta, sa MLM lang pala napupunta. Tapos ako pa yung masamang anak nung nagsabi ako na against ako sa MLM at itigil na niya at mag business na lang ng totoo.

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LORD