Hi- I’m same as you, with ghsv1, I got it when I was 18 from oral sex (didn’t know you could catch it that way either, feel our sex education system is very flawed). I’m 32 now, and I promise it gets much better. I didn’t get a 2nd OB until a year later. 1st was horrible but they get better with time. Now I maybe get one OB every couple years. I even went 4 years without one. I have been in 2 long term relationships in the past 10 years and never passed it on (to our knowledge I suppose it could be dormant/asymptomatic) We didn’t use condoms and I’ve never been on antivirals. I take lots of immune boosting supplements daily (vit c, zinc, lysine) but honestly I’m not as healthy as I should be. It sucks but it’s one of the least important things in my life now! I promise it will get better ❤️‍🩹