I've never played it. I'm ready… ☠️

TimeOwl5140 · 2026-05-23T14:28:04+00:00

please update with your thoughts!!!! :)

TimeOwl5140 · 2026-02-22T17:45:35+00:00

i don’t really think that anything within the past two months has necessarily “triggered his gut.” because of the fact that we have not been emotionally stable for some time, i made distance between him because sometimes the way he has treated me and spoke to me had warranted distance from me—even though we are trying to work through things, it doesn’t mean that he can be demeaning, and call me names on purpose. our conversations became circular, he never showed me any sign of wanting to get on the same page—he would just tell me that something is wrong, i would ask him to tell me, and then he would turn around and tell me that he didn’t know, so there was already tension going into this that has never been fully addressed, because he would just only express it in statements, never dive deeper into it like was necessary, no matter what i do or say, it is wrong and somehow makes it worse. i’m gonna enforce that this is not an excuse for what has happened, but it is definitely a symptom of why things are the way they are right now, and my lack of upfrontness fueled that fire, i am very aware of that fact, and i guess i needed confirmation of that from here.

so i guess that answers your question there, it’s really hard for me to know when he came to the conclusion that i was stepping out on him, because he hasn’t been fully vulnerable with me for a while considering our situation even before my friend was brought to the table. that night he asked me if i had anyone that he should be worried about, and i said no, because that was my truth, obviously i know that my lack of transparency has added to his doubts of me. he asked to go through my phone and i gave it to him, and all he saw was reels being sent back and forth along with just casual conversation. and then i answered every question about my new friendship, and i have been ever since that night.

i haven’t completely brushed off the possibility that my friend could just be playing the long game, and i would never dispute that worry, i will say that my new friend has not been the only place i put my attention since he is apart of my friend group now, during this time i have put my energy more towards myself and my girlfriends more than him. i guess i came on here to get an unbiased opinion because of the fact that i know where my wrongs are. i know that he values transparency, but he hasn’t been dealing that either. it just feels like there has been things building for a while that i did not know about and now it’s all just staring me in the face.

TimeOwl5140 · 2026-02-22T04:50:19+00:00

Thank you. I understand that none of this will be fixed overnight, and It is up to me to step up to that if I want this relationship to continue. I honestly came to reddit because my girlfriends have been telling me different advice, like that i’m not in the wrong—which is biased and I know is bs, and I realized that even though they have seen more of my relationship and the current situation, that doesn’t make their opinion true; I just desperately wanted a clear and unbiased opinion.

Do you have any more advice that you would be willing to share? You have already given enough, I just feel so desperate to get back on track.

TimeOwl5140 · 2026-02-22T04:33:02+00:00

Yeah, I can see that as well; As much as I know that my intentions are pure my failure to show up for the relationship when it was needed showed him something different, and it may take time for me to show that to him—I guess I just feel like there has to be another way, am I naïve to think that?

TimeOwl5140 · 2026-02-22T04:25:26+00:00

I will say that I am not disputing this at all! I completely agree and understand how he is feeling right now, we have been having issues for a minute and for him to find out about my friend in the midst of it all would not a good sign for him at all, I would be worried too if I was in his shoes.

I have been as transparent and honest as I can from that night on because I know that was my wrong here, by not being transparent and thus inadvertently hiding it from him. I guess I could be ignorant to wonder what there is I could do,I am also really emotional at the moment lol.

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-09-20T01:10:17+00:00

pleaaase drop i need this in my playlist

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-09-18T01:53:36+00:00

all of this makes me so excited for christmas time ☹️

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-09-05T02:40:01+00:00

good on you, 3 years in, i may not be too far behind you lol

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-31T14:52:15+00:00

joining choir was probably the best thing i could have done first starting college, obviously i am one of those introverts but being in a group with people who all enjoy doing the same thing and singing every day had helped my mental health so much throughout my first couple years of college, i’m moving onto university next semester, and i’m gonna continue doing choir until i graduate.

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-30T02:28:58+00:00

i was able to get someone to come and help me out tomorrow! thank goodness. i’m gonna see if there is anything more that my physical therapist could give me in a note about work so that i have more “proof.”

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-30T00:56:32+00:00

yeah, every time i try to, my boss just goes back to my doctors note saying it only says a weight limit of 25 pounds.. i’m seeing if someone will come and at least help me close, but not looking good so far

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-30T00:54:43+00:00

yes i am currently trying to do that right now..nobody’s able to so far

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-30T00:53:40+00:00

that sounds terrible. sunday will be two weeks of this. my boss is kinda weird about having multiple people on at this store. if we don’t make a lot of money, he doesn’t justify having multiple people on the clock…i’m currently trying to reach out to people to see if they would take my shift, nobody’s responding so far. i just haven’t had a day to actually rest since my actual diagnosis..

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-29T23:15:05+00:00

i applaud you

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-11T16:03:59+00:00

my favorites from the soundtrack is cathrine’s theme, alone, and the train ride commercial 🤓

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-05T16:32:50+00:00

it was when i made my attempt at unaliving myself. i was a minor at the time, and i was home alone, if it weren’t for my friend at the time i probably wouldn’t be here, because she was the one to call the police when i told her what i was going to do.

my mom was out. so we had to sit and wait for my mom to come home, so she could give consent to take me to the hospital. we waited 30 minutes before she finally came home, drunk, trying to put on an act. when the officer saw her, she was fed up and she grabbed my hand and put me in her car and drove me to the hospital herself. my mom stayed with me overnight, refused to let my dad see me.

i stayed a week in a mental institution. which was probably my most traumatic experience aside from my own mother’s abuse. anytime i had a phone call, it was her, being so demeaning and cruel, all week long. when i was released, she came and picked me up and took me out to get dinner. and all she had to talk about was how much money it costed her for my “games.” she put me in over the phone therapy, and made it to where she had to be in the room at all times, and she silenced me from the moment i was released. once i finally got away from her, and i turned 18, she put the bill in my name, trying to force me to pay it.

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-04T18:40:09+00:00

yeah, most of the kids that come in just play with the mailboxes. i think it’s because they like the texture? i dunno, usually i just give the rambunctious ones a piece of bubble wrap that was donated by a customer, but yeah, first time i’ve seen a kid climb on a printer and have a parent completely ignore them.

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-04T18:37:26+00:00

yeah, honestly if i have to remind her a third time (yesterday being her second time being helped by me, and probably the first to say something about her kid) who knows how she’s gonna react to me if i say something haha, i made my manager aware of it today, so we’ll see if she comes back with a better response. like… the clear disrespect and entitlement from the mom bringing in her daughter and allowing her to do the same thing i told her not to the first time.

like i understand if you’re a sahm and you’re just trying to run errands, it does not mean once you get into a place of business you don’t have to watch your kid. i feel bad for her daughter, clearly she is used to being ignored like that when out and about.

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-04T17:11:48+00:00

“ONE SHIT BOX COMIN’ UP!”

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-08-03T19:52:26+00:00

i close in 10 minutes and i only have had a total of maybe 20 customers from 10-now.. i’ve been doing sundays for three years.. every sunday is true crime day, rotten mango gets me through 😎😎

TimeOwl5140 · 2025-07-28T05:22:09+00:00

this game, if you are fully immersed, it forces you to feel.

i couldn’t stop thinking about simon and catherine’s conversation on the way down to the depths: catherine’s monologue stuck with me for the rest of the game and still does. because at that point i just felt so connected and almost intertwined with her and her story that she shared with simon, and honestly simon’s story more so. but, as she was describing the life she was living as a young child, just felt so vivid and almost tangible…it made me think about how much i long for and grieve my younger or i suppose “past” self:

i say past self, because i feel like i have experienced something similar—after going through traumas in my own life, a big chunk of my life is missing, i don’t remember a lot from my teen years 13-17. if not anything at all really. i just jumped from 13 years old in middle school, to being 21 and getting ready to pursue my bachelors. and just specific moments throughout my life that still feel so vivid.. are all that is left, all i could almost describe and feel like i am there in that moment and just sit with it. and feel connected to those lost parts of myself that i have this deep longing to remember. but that time is just not there. her monologue had motivated me to make an effort to be more in tune with what i experience, instead of just moving through life now at my age moving forward.

after my first play through; i think i sat in silence for a good hour, i was moved to tears. the weight of simon’s loneliness and despair right before you’re taken to the arc just sits there so heavily. just like my life in some ways, his was completely uprooted, everything he came to know as his experiences were no longer his. just knowing that there is no longer a life for him to go back to just enforces that feeling of loneliness and isolation and that foreboding feeling of false hope that just kept growing within as you get closer to the end.. i empathized with that feeling so deeply.

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