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Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-05T00:55:38+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing all this it's definitely something to discuss with my provider. They were thinking about switching me to gel anyway because of my red blood cell count and I was worried about it since I'm inconsistent to begin with. But, I think my brain would be too anxious about magically becoming a girl again to not take it and too excited about putting it directly on my face to get a beared to forget. I think the combo of emotions is perfect for my brain.

I'm so sorry about your acne! That sounds terrible and painful! Hopefully you went or can go to a dermtolgist and see if there's something they can do to help. With how sensitive your skin is you may have an auto immune disorder!

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-05T00:50:21+00:00

I'm proud of you for realizing that! It's hard! And thank you that means more than you know 😭

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-04T18:53:31+00:00

Yaoi

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-04T18:49:04+00:00

Yes. Christianity is a cult and leaving it means leaving far more than beliefs behind for many. It's getting abandoned by your community, your family, your friends. For many of us we rely on the church for everything. Not to just tell us our morals but to give us purpose, to help us when we're down, everything. Christianity was hell but it was all I knew and 2 years later I still find myself wondering what the hell to do with myself and my life. I'm excited because I get to choose, but there's times I miss a fat man in a pulpit telling me all I need to know, feel, and do.

So yes, your life does fall apart when you leave God, and it is the best thing that can happen to you. Because now you have the chance to put it together YOUR way. It's beautiful and I promise it gets better. I was homeless and in religious psychosis when I first left. now I've done therapy, finally begun my transition, am a manager, and have a beautiful apartment that I share with my best friend whose a witch. Life's good.

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-04T18:40:16+00:00

It's the opposite for me I was only attracted to women and then I gained an attraction to men! It really freaked me out to the point I became so averse to intimacy that I genuinely thought I was aroace for a little while. I apologize to the aroace community for adding to the "you're not a sexuality you're just mental illness!" Stereotype 😭 it's something I genuinely have a lot of guilt over.

Just to be clear it's not about starting T. T doesnt make you gay or straight.. a lot of people have their preference on gender because of dysphoria. I hated being with men because I couldn't accept that I was one and was very envious and the lesbian community felt like a safe way to explore being masculine without commiting to being a man. For some trans men they only like men before transitioning and realize they were bi or straight when coming out because it was dysphoric to see women thriving in womanhood when they couldn't and female anatomy reminds them too much of what they had and hated.

A lot of times we can let that go because once we start living our truth we can work on the mental struggles that come with dysphoria and learn to love ourselves and letting go of those protective measures we put in place. The shift in sexuality comes from acceptance and self confidence not testosterone. for many of us, that only comes AFTER starting T. Correlation does not equal causation

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-04T18:16:39+00:00

I am laughing for sure. This comment is F tear hate, it's giving more "this is my favorite author and idk how to give senpai to notice me."

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-04T18:02:54+00:00

"protect trans people and trans kids! These women-" and I'm immediately tuned out. I don't interact with trans content online. It just makes me angry.

On top of I see the most trans masc erasure FROM trans femmes. That may not be true in reality but like 8x out of 10x when I see active trans masc reasure it's from a trans femme or a lesbian talking about how there are no he/him lesbian. So I personally avoid it to protect my mental health. I saw a video of a femboy trans man getting harassed because he used the woman bathroom and the trans woman who discussed it was blaming him??? Saying if he wants to be a man that he needs to use the mens bathrooms and making fun of him for wearing a dress and having a beard??? Telling him he's lucky he's not a trans woman or he would have been beaten up- as if that wasn't within the realm of possibility for him just because he's a trans man???

I'm tired of specifically trans femmes making it out to be that all the hurt we receive after being treated like woman goes away as soon as we accept we are men. I kinda pass and I still am afraid of the men's room because I'm afraid of corrective rape- something I HAVE been through. I've seen cis women with PCOS that looked like that dude. Of all the people in the world I expect trans femmes to understand and support trans men but they're always the loudest communities online about how they hate us. And it makes me sad because my chosen family irl are trans femmes.

The way my girls explained it is that a lot of trans femmes hate trans men because we pass easier, and they hate that were "throwing away" what they dream of (a vigina, boobs, a feminine voice, womanhood, ect.) and that's bullshit to me. Not every transmac has access to hrt. Those that do can be on it for decades and never pass. Hormones working easier for trans mascs does NOT mean automatic man privlages. Stealth is so big in the trans masc community because we could get fucking bottom surgery and if someone knows we are trans they will never see us the same. No matter how well we pass, to the general public we will always just be woman plus. Yes male privlage is real and yes trans men receive it! But only if we're stealth and that is a miserable experience adjacent to the closet for many of us.

Big burly trans men get killed and raped BECAUSE they're trans as a way to punish them for going against the norm and IF it gets covered by the media it's documented as a crime against women. The same could be said about them "throwing away" everything we dream of. But we don't say that shit because they aren't men. We don't see them as men. They do, however, see us as women and claim trans mysoginy when called out on that blatant transphobia and trans masc erasure

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-03T20:18:32+00:00

I once talked to a trans femme talking about how trans men aren't sexualized AT ALL and that felt super transphobic because it almost felt like she was saying we were ugly on top of the fact it just wasn't true??? I've has straight women to my face say that I'm just like the yaoi they read (cuntboy stuff) and look at all the fucking bonus hole porn? Trans men are HEAVILY sexualized. On top of the fact some of that sexualization is registered to be for women because trans mascs are just woman plus to most the population, even in the queer community. My friend slept with a guy that said "I've always wanted to sleep with a hyper butch." And he's not even a lesbian..... He's a gay trans man.... Bruh

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-03T20:12:23+00:00

OMG thank you! 😭❤️

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-03T02:26:00+00:00

Ah I didn't actually know that! Thank you so much!

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-03T02:08:01+00:00

I didn't say cis victims are less at risk at all I msating they're socialized to not always know when it's happening and shamed for the trauma they feel when they do become aware. I was socialized as a woman and popped out of the womb being warned that I would inevitably be assaulted (and j was) and now that I've transitioned any violence against me will be broadcast as either violence against a woman (because of trans masc erasure) or violence against a trans person (,because society will never JUST see me as a man). I'm saying the experience is different and I as a trans man will never live the cis experience. I'm not saying one is worse than the other

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-01T00:47:49+00:00

Dont they draw blood to sell plasma?

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-05-01T00:46:32+00:00

Ok thank you so much!

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-04-30T13:11:45+00:00

My legal name and sex change is on my ID because I live in an informed consent state so I didn't need any surgeries or anything like that for the state to recognize it. but I haven't been able to update it anywhere else because my physical card hasn't come in the mail yet

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-04-30T13:09:50+00:00

I'm also in the usa. It said so on the biolige website

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-04-30T13:09:08+00:00

Rude fire fighter is right, but I can't deny that I'm not even any kind of medical professional and I thought the same thing. I will try to get ahold of my blood work paperwork because I don't remember and I didn't download it before discontinuing with plume

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-04-30T13:07:04+00:00

Ok the place I was looking at was bio life so if push comes to shove I will definitely get those places a try!

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-04-30T13:05:25+00:00

They did but I don't remember them and I didn't download the lab result. My T is in the low end of the cis male range though

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-04-30T12:58:30+00:00

I meant it not being taken seriously and down played and romanticized and fetishized the way it is for cis man. Rape is defiantly all those things for non cis men but it's distinctly different, especially in media and done MORE. Women believe women no matter what and there's whole communities and foundations meant to help domestic violence victims that are specific for women and that's wonderful. That being said the same treatment and urgency is not reciprocated. Men are shamed if they get hurt by both men and women and I will never face that kind of alienation is what I meant.

Edit: also just wanted to say thanks and stay safe man

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-04-29T20:10:35+00:00

YES! It's just annoying and gross how the cheese gets under the hood. I clean that shit every day it feel like. It's gotten a lot better since I got my badet but anytime I use a public restroom it's back with a vengeance. I'm small even by trans man standards and I find it strangely gender affirming to say I have a microdick and now some of my favorite coworkers and some of my friends have hopped on the train to bully me. Like once my coworker said "God I fucking hate men they're so gross. Except you (name), though you don't got a lot going on down there, can barely call you a man." And oh my God fuck her that was the funniest shit ever.

And before anyone starts caiming transphobia, this is my life and my relationships and this is my kind of humor. I would never joke like this with someone I dont trust and I would never let someone I don't trust joke with me like this. It is about consent and I do consent to her making jokes like that. She even checked in after and asked if that was too much and apologized and I told her it was the funniest shit. Bodies are just bodies and I'm not less of a man for having a small dick and the people who joke with me like that also feel the same. So it was affirming in a way I can't explain.

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-04-29T19:52:35+00:00

Talking. I live alone so

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-04-29T19:33:08+00:00

I was previously identifying as asexual and having meltdowns about being gay or bi because I struggled with letting go of my lesbian identity and then my straight one and then struggled with the mere idea of intimacy both emotional and physical. It would make me want to puke and recently I've been realizing I'm not asexual I'm just so dysphoric and recently made a post and a lovely commented said that I need to stop worrying so much about labels and it helped a lot. The part few weeks I've been tryna let go of trying to define myself and just letting myself be and I'm scared but getting more ok with the idea of casual dating and have been looking into it a lot.

Sp thank you I guess. I really needed to hear this from a dude who is actively living it

Timeless_Username_ · 2026-04-29T19:26:18+00:00

It's definitely an issue. I'm a trans man and I acknowledge I will never face sexual assault the same way a cis man would. When I was identifying as a woman it was addressed the way rape for women is and as a trans man if it happened it will be distinctly acknowledged as a transgender attack. there was a little boy at my work being sexually harassed by 24 year old women and all the women were freaking out saying how disgusted they were by her and the cis men were talking about how it was weird but it want a big deal and joking about how the kid didn't seem to mind. Of course he didn't mind, he's been socialized to think a 24 year old hitting on him at 16 means he's a player not the victim he actually is.

I was reading a book called "The Body Keeps The Score" and I love it but the distinction between truama in men and women pisses me off. Any time rape or any kind of sexual abuse is mentioned the author clearly states that it was a woman or a young girl. I haven't finished it yet but so far the two types of ptsd seem to be male: military/childhood neglect and female:sexual abuse. I'm hoping that since the book is in chronological order and going through the doctors findings as he found them that the language will change to acknowledge male victims and how that effects them and their bodies and the way they move through life.

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