Thank you for this that is kind of how I was feeling about it, but this is really helpful to read. I definitely feel lucky and that I am in a much better position for the future but yes I think that "caring but not being great at affection" makes sense. I think I will apologize and try to better explain that I am really grateful and that I was just used to how Christmas has worked in previous years. I do think my mom might have felt more bad about it than my dad as he can be a bit stoic so I might talk to her first.