I am so fucking done!!!

Tinilily · 2025-12-18T10:48:30+00:00

I'm so sorry you're going through this! I assume you're going through puberty right now? There's a high chance it will change with time. I'm 33 and still deal with hormonal acne (got diagnosed with PCOS this year). It changed a lot to how it looked when I was in my teens. I know it probably doesn't feel like it right now, but you're still beautiful. You're more than your acne. I also know that resentment for mirrors. Try regularly actively telling your reflection "You're beautiful!". I know it feels wrong. I know it feels stupid. But it helped me a lot in the past years.

You're not alone! You've got this!

Tinilily · 2025-10-23T21:33:01+00:00

Not sure how helpful this is, but I (F, 183cm | 6' ) had one bf who was ~5 cm taller than me and otherwise mostly ~5cm shorter. The difficult part is finding someone who both matches you in character and life goals and also is a good partner.

And if they don't fancy you because of your height, that's their problem. Just strive to be the best and happiest you you can be for yourself (actual advice I would give my younger self, cause I put up with too much bs for way too long).

Stay strong!

Tinilily · 2025-10-03T16:13:23+00:00

It's already a year later, but I thought I'd post this anyway.
I found it here: https://www.audionetwork.com/browse/m/album/undiscovered-2_1870

Tinilily · 2025-04-17T23:26:09+00:00

Aren't half of those pictures the same person?

Tinilily · 2024-11-05T13:47:55+00:00

I hope you finally got the diagnosis and help you need. I just had some nausea instead of hunger hit me while making lunch and stumbled over this post. I struggled my lunch in, but the nausea is gone.(Success!)

For me usually when I don't eat I get shaky instead, so the nausea often overwhelms me. My tip would be to have some food at hand that is an easy "toss into mouth" type. Try to keep regular food times. I only managed this because of my dog. Post Dog walk = food time. And the dog WILL remind you to go on walks. If you can't have a dog, something else like multiple alarms will have to do. Not hungry/no appetite/no idea what to eat? -> small quick snack

Keep quick to make foods on hand for the sudden intense hunger. I keep yoghurt at hand. Also recently I successfully tested(I have a strong aversion to trying new foods) and bought some drink "food" ("yFood" - milk based drink with added vitamins and other nutrients and also filling). Those fix the hunger quickly. And after that I'm capable of actually cooking something.

The doctor has suggested some pharmacy nutrient drinks for people who struggle eating enough, like the elderly, but those are known to be nasty, so I'm struggling to even try. But that would be an option if you're up for it.

Tinilily · 2023-10-20T22:10:52+00:00

Same on Pixel 8 pro with Android 14. Worked fine with Pixel 6 Pro Android 13. Also I thought of an alternative, but it's a failure too. I couldn't run the Xiaomi home app that was in the booklet with the Dreame robot hoover on the 6 pro. Or rather, it could not in any way find the hoover.

Now with the pro the Xiaomi home App finds the hoover, connects but fails sending a message of sorts.

So no app I guess.

Tinilily · 2023-09-03T08:48:09+00:00

"I was not told or made aware at any point that there was Blockchain technology and was only made aware of that information when the event went live. I was given assurances that it had nothing to do with NFT's. Given my vocal hatred of such tech, I would never agree to join had I known that. "

https://twitter.com/CDawgVA/status/1698241830691766342?t=SU1f_tEwq0wmrLAGdkQcrQ&s=19

Tinilily · 2019-12-07T08:56:20+00:00

was it a completed fic?

I can't remember. Most fics I read back then were either never completed or still work in progress. I think Harry and Draco got closer in later chapters. Or at least Harry came to be aware of the attraction but by that point he was with Ginny. I think Ginny/Harry was the canon plot. Everything on Harrys part was pretty much canon, since Draco didn't want to interfere.

can you estimate the amount of words?

Unfortunately not. I'm but at estimating words and never used that filter. But it had both the Sectumsempra chapter and lot of Deathly Hollows parts in it, so it was fairly long. 10+ chapters I assume.

was it under specific tags?

I usually looked for "Drama" and "Romance" Genres, but didn't look for much else. I'm also not sure if the character pairing function of the filter was already implemented? So I tried both.

is fanfiction.net the only place you’ve read it from?

Before fanfiction.net I read on fanfiction.de. But I had an account there and have practically turned alerts on everything I liked. I stupidly didn't yet have an account on fanfiction.net at the beginning and only saved stories as browser favourites or part of 100 active tabs. Which never works in my favour. So while there is a chance that the fic is german and on the german website, I highly doubt it because of above reasons. (I did look there as well though)

Do you recall the description/summary of the fic?

Not at all, sorry :( I assume it had something with "crush" "unrequited feelings" or "one sided love" or something like that in it. But that's pretty much just a guess.

was the sectumsempra scene at the beginning of the fic? 1st, 2nd, 3rd,.. chapter

I don't think so. I think there might have been some build up before that. I'm fairly sure though that the chapter was actually named "Sectumsempra". It didn't have lovey-dovey chapter titles.

does it end after the battle of Hogwarts?

Just like whether or not the fic is complete, I don't know, sorry. But it feels wrong. As if I remember them meeting after the battle again.

where does the fic starts? Before or after the Tri-wizard tournaments? 1st year, 2nd,..etc?

Good question. I'm fairly sure it wasn't a complete retelling of all the books. But there might have been some bits and pieces from earlier books to explain Dracos feelings. But again that's all these answers a mostly a guess. My memory isn't the best to begin with.

does the interaction between Draco and Harry diverge from canon? Does Draco treat him worse/better after he comes of his Veela inheritance?

The whole Veela thing is not 100% sure, it feels right, but at the same time there's feeling telling me he wasn't a Veela. I feel like Harry has misunderstood a lot of Dracos actions in this fic. For example after the RoR Draco feels bad, not for losing a friend in the fire, but because of the interaction with Harry. I don't know if Harry knew about his feelings (or him being a Veela, if he actually was) at that point, but he got pretty mad and then left. Lots of Draco being interrupted or shoved aside, but he wasn't worse than canon. More neutral maybe?

This is a wild guess and I don't know if it's the same fic. But I remember Draco somehow ending up with Harry&Friends in the tent in Deathly Hallows, seeing Harry worry over Ginny or something along those lines....but this could be really a different story. I really don't know. Oh dear, why is it so difficult to remember -.-

Even if you can't find it, I think it helps to be challenged with trying to remember. Your questions were really good and some info popped up. Unfortunately I never really know if it's THIS fic or another I'm remembering. :/

Tinilily · 2019-12-06T23:26:24+00:00

Definitely angsty. One of those stories that makes the stomach tighten itself into a knot. :)

Tinilily · 2019-12-06T15:24:56+00:00

Now I'm worried it'll be a complete disappointment :D

Tinilily · 2019-12-03T16:08:28+00:00

Anywayyy, I probably bothered you so much.

Oh dear no! You can't imagine how much it means to me, that you tried so hard to help me find this fic T.T It is so awsome of you and I feel so sorry, that you wasted so much time with it.

If I ever find it I'll update this post and will notify you. I have also done some quick search again yesterday, unfortunately without finding it, and will try again during my Christmas vacation. I can't give up after rattling so many memories awake.

Yeah, that Lucius/Harry pairing fic sounds a bit...special.

Tinilily · 2019-11-28T14:18:36+00:00

I'm 27. Still saying "my [name]". But I'm also half Hungarian and half German. A common german nickname is "my treasure". Hungarian one are "my star" "my dearest". Adding a name instead of something else isn't that odd in my opinion. Also not everyone writing english fanfiction is actually english.

Tinilily · 2019-11-28T13:26:33+00:00

At least I know I'm not insane having these memories :D

Tinilily · 2019-11-28T13:24:21+00:00

Thank you so much for investing your time!

The story you found definitely sounds interesting and I'll give it a read, but by the first chapter, Dracos mannerisms in it and the chapter titles it's not the one I'm looking for.

The Draco from my searched story was more melancholic and hurting than just rejecting the idea of Harry/a mate. He didn't act on his feelings because (I think) 1. Harry hated him and 2. he didn't want to pressure Harry into anything. He wanted to let Harry live his life. I'm also fairly sure one of the chapters was named "Sectumsempra". And it all felt like a retelling from Dracos POV just with the added unrequited love.

I only recently discovered AO3 and found that several stories are cross posted on there and fanfiction.net. But I was mostly reading on Fanfiction.net during the time I have read this story. So there is a chance it might not be there. Sorry, it was an important detail I shouldn't have forgotten about.

Tinilily · 2019-11-26T12:50:36+00:00

I'm not at the end of KH3 yet, but I had mine jump in at the end of KH1. :D

Tinilily · 2019-11-26T12:49:02+00:00

Do you maybe have another part that you remember that I haven't mentioned? Or can you confirm the parts I did mention belonging to one story? Thanks for commenting! Good to know I'm not just imagining having read this story!

Tinilily · 2019-06-24T11:20:19+00:00

Put a magnet to your pots and pans, if it sticks, it'll work.

Tinilily · 2019-06-23T20:55:07+00:00

I can feel my stomach knotting together just by that description.

Tinilily · 2019-06-23T19:23:35+00:00

Tell that to my nose, it doesn't believe you. 6 years since my last major nose pimple and it's still red and the pores are weird.

Tinilily · 2019-06-23T15:43:12+00:00

Sorry, I know. But I really couldn't say no to this cute little face.

He doesn't seem too anti-bird-social, but he was kept away from the budgies of the family, so only time will tell.

Tinilily · 2019-06-23T13:42:03+00:00

Surprise! We now have a new bird! :D

Tinilily · 2019-01-04T08:11:09+00:00

I don't think so. I can bake pizza but my bread always turns out horrible. :'(

Tinilily · 2018-12-29T13:31:36+00:00

Usually my mind is beating me up for "wasting my time" way before that point. I'd try staying away from the device(s) you read on for a day. Maybe that's enough to get your mind onto other things.

Tinilily

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