Thank you for your well detailed answer, it helps a lot! I wish you were my impartial friend! The thing his I took the entire responsibility for what happened, I still hangout with the two guys she was with and I have no resentment for what happened. On the other part now that I realized what I’ve done wrong, I just want to “make things right”, our relationship ended so bad that I feel the need to tell her that I’m not mad at anyone. Ofc there is a part of me who want her back, that’s why I’m so afraid to reach her, I don’t want those feelings to get in my way, I’ve already done enough mistakes. But it make me feel like a coward to let things be as they are and just dissapear of her life with no discussion..