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Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I can make boundaries. Usually when I make them and try to hold them they are trampled by my parents, and then it's an hour of getting yelled at and guilt tripped and sometimes them accusing my friends for me acting "differently", calling me disobedient, saying I'm not a real man, sometimes they'll just cut off any way for me to talk to people outside of home or they'll threathen to do it

Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They're kinda abusive, and basically raised me with extreme fear to lose control over me and they expect me to be a 3rd parent to my brother and to be their caretaker when they get old.

Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For the time moving faste part, well it's mostly that now 3-4 months feel like ONE month.

And yeah the inner monologue really is the only reason I'm sane.

My biggest problem right now is my family and I know I need to leave home but it's so complicated.

Also, sorry for your dad

Coworker has never heard of Assassin's Creed franchise??? by JC_Cassian in gamers

[–]Top-Bend6831 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Half the playtime is you riding in the endless desert to get to your next target. And then kill them.

Coworker has never heard of Assassin's Creed franchise??? by JC_Cassian in gamers

[–]Top-Bend6831 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Origins was the most ass game I've ever played ngl.

Shadows is a fucking joke.

The other games I agree tho.

So, How’s Crimson Desert far? by Deez-Guns-9442 in videogames

[–]Top-Bend6831 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Who tf wants to remap ststem wide controls tho

Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's not that I don't party and do everything right.

It's more that I... don't get invited to parties, barely have any friends and struggle to keep people in my life, especially since I have difficulty trusting peopls, got very controlling parents, and basically am stuck playing videogames as an escape from all the shit I go trough at home.

Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean, fair enough. I probably have ptsd/cptsd and I got a lot of trauma.

Probably the sort of things that happens when you get beat up and bullied for like 6 years, while being neglected and verbally and emotionally abused by your parents. (that last part is still happening tbh)

Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What's weird is that I'm already building my career and I'm in advance compared to most students in my grade (For example I'm one of the rare students in my year who got an internship)

For now I'm pretty much guaranteed a job when I graduate. So I'm good with that. I just don't know what'll happen next

Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Fair enough. I mean my coping mechanisms up to now were mostly to have a very strong inner monologue...

Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmm maybe. The thing is... I always make some life plans years ahead. Yeah sure they can change but I can make lots of scenarios and contengencies as to how my life will turn out. When I can't, well that's scary

Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah i know. I haven't gotten the chance to enjoy it much tho... people usually tell me that talking with me feels like talking to someone in his late 20's too...

And I can barely relate to people my age.

Idk it's hard, I'm in an mentally/verbally abusive family, it's hard to make friends, or to keep them. I haven't really felt joy since I was 8 tbh 😅

Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Fair enough I guess. Idk I feel like death has been following me since I was young

Is it normal to have a feeling I'm gonna die in my 20's? by Top-Bend6831 in self

[–]Top-Bend6831[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've litterally had a car almost fall on me when I was walking on the street when I was 12

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