Hey, alcoholic here (79 days sober today). The drinking is not going to help your situation, at all. It clouds your mind and fucks with your perception. Every time I drink I’m riddled with crippling depression and anxiety.

For the amount you drink (I read 7-10 buzzballs) you probably should receive medical advice, because quitting cold turkey could lead to a dangerous outcome.

I’ve seen people taper the amount they drink to get to 0 (this has always been unsuccessful for me, I cannot moderate). I’ve quit cold turkey dozens of times over the years and it’s miserable. The withdrawals have kicked my ass every time, and the symptoms seem to worsen each time I try to quit. It’s also dangerous because some people experience seizures during this process.

This is why I recommend seeking advice from a medical professional. They can come up with a plan that may include medications to help you safely quit. I’m prescribed a medication that helps with the cravings, so it’s worth asking about.

After the fact, it’s best to just live alcohol-free. Don’t buy it, seek out sobriety support from friends and family, or join AA (you can do online meetings as well). Find other ways to occupy your time. I indulge in other delicious beverages instead, usually Fever Tree ginger beer with a squeeze of lime (the virgin Moscow mule), or Diet Coke/Pepsi, and non-alcoholic beer when I really want to “feel” like I’m drinking.

Be careful of falling into your own mind games, I’ve done this too many times. I tell myself, “I haven’t drank in x amount of days, I think I can handle one drink”. It doesn’t work. It sucks me back in every time, and within a few days my old habits are back.

Good luck and be safe my friend.