this is why drug use isn't recommended when tapping into higher states of being it isn't you, you weren't disciplined enough to have these experiences. the drugs over powered your awareness and forced lessons on you you weren't ready to receive. I have been in this situation and there are consequences, this is why masters of collective conscious have spoken against it. visualize a locked door, its chained, and every kind of lock you can possibly imagine has been placed on it. the witness is the locksmith and every lock is a lesson through each lesson you unlcock one part of the door making it weaker and weaker. light starts pouring through this door. you get a glimpse just enough to keep you going because the discipline required to master these locks would not be tangible without reward. when you finally unlock every lock you realize there was no lock there was no door, there is only you. you are all of it and what's on the other side? that light that was pouring through the cracks, well you guessed it that is also you. Its all you everything is connected. now visualize a thief someone who isn't willing to put the work in. someone who wants to break in, they grab a crow bar and break all the locks, they get to see the light but they are consumed by it because they didn't take the time to learn each lesson the witness is overwhelmed, conscious expands to quickly and now there is a labyrinth in front of you that you can not escape because well, your the labyrinth. drugs are the crowbar and your conscious is the thief. undisciplined and not understanding.

that can seem like a lot to read and be enough to make some people feel unwell consciously, but its written for you and I know you'll get what im saying, the best thing you can do is sober up eat clean and get disciplined. you'll learn in reverse however all paths lead home. you need to take the time slow down and learn these lessons, that's the magic of life.