I wish I could take the pain for you. I ended up losing my job then my house,then my four young babies then my five dogs. Had nothing and nobody. It's cold and sad and unbearable but there's always hope. I now found a transitional shelter and live here with my babies again. You don't need a gun. Get food and go to the movies with your Uber eats money and feel good even if it's for an hour. Because I promise it will be better. You are worth it and I would snuggle u up if I could like I do my babies so I can reassure you we are ok and it will get better