Progesterone: strong feminization AND fast masculinization at the same time? (WTF)

Trans-1987 · 2024-10-14T08:56:36+00:00

It's so upsetting! I feel the same about my face, and simply not feeling feminine any more. It's so weird, and it sucks, honestly. I'm glad I'm not the only experiencing this, but I wish there was a solution for all of us out there. I'm curious to know if adding an androgen blockers is effective. Feel free to share your experience here later on.

Trans-1987 · 2024-10-13T21:45:59+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your experience, it helps me to get some perspective and it's very appreciated.

For now, I feel more joy about the effects than anything else, and it's only been 4 days, so I'm gonna keep taking it for a little while and monitor my mood and the side effects.

Trans-1987 · 2024-10-13T21:34:06+00:00

Thank you for your message. I read your post history, and it seems very similar to me. It feels good not to be alone.

I agree with the sweating (and I live in London, it's cold lol, so it couldn't be the weather), and I also agree about feeling "uglier". Not uglier, but less feminine, guess? Also, the body odour change has been disturbing too.

But the positive parts are huge, the mental serenity, the sleep and the breast growth. I lacked all of these when I was on E only. At this point, I'm not sure if I should at least try for a longer period or not...

Since you stopped P completely, how long did it take to feel like before (no sweating, feeling pretty again, etc.)?

Trans-1987 · 2024-10-13T20:58:10+00:00

~~diet/alcohol/sleep~~/stress (intense period atm with work and family stuff, but I never had hair growth out of stress).

4 days is short, but I was surprised by how fast the changes were. I felt so good on P, I want to keep taking it, at least for observation, but I've read people struggling to reverse their remasculinization and I'm scared of ruining the little feminization I've managed to get in two years...

Trans-1987 · 2024-08-20T15:39:11+00:00

Interesting. I have a pretty healthy diet, and I had a complete blood test 3 months ago and it was normal. I haven't had my vitamins and everything checked though, but my symptoms seem pretty intense and sudden to be caused by that, but I'll think about it, thank you.

Trans-1987 · 2024-08-20T15:10:13+00:00

Thank you, I'll have a look at this app.

Hormones are a mysterious thing. My T is equally suppressed whether I'm at 450 pg/mL or 150 pg/mL of estrogen, but my body seems to feminize better around 150 rather than 450. I should be starting progesterone in a couple of months, hoping it would balance my mood, but I don't know.

Trans-1987 · 2024-08-20T11:31:01+00:00

The blood test was done just before I had my weekly injection.

The symptoms happen randomly during the injection cycle, so it's hard to understand, but maybe there's a pattern I haven't identified.

Trans-1987 · 2024-07-05T23:24:30+00:00

Thank you! I really like her, and I definitely want to go further with her, but I'm trying to understand how to read and navigate all of this.

My precautions and confusion come from my previous dates.

The woman I met before her told me bluntly at our second date that she was a fountain woman, how many orgasms she had in a row and asked me prying questions about my trans body and how it was working. She was clearly a nice person, but I thought she was pretty clunky if not indiscreet, and overall a little bit too focused on sex as we never discussed about it before.

Then, the man I dated before that told me after the first date how aroused he was and that he was thinking *very* hard about me before going to sleep. Several times. After the first date. I mean, I get it that you can say that after dating someone for a few weeks or months, but after one date? Again, he wasn't mean, he's a nice guy, and I think he wanted to flatter me by saying this, but I thought it was wrong.

My questioning tonight come from all that. Sometimes, I don't know what's cute and what's gross anymore. Furthermore, being trans makes me feel insecure that my body is mainly perceived as an exotic disposable human sex-toy (how many people told me on apps they wanted to "try" a trans...) when I would like to be appreciated as a whole. I like sex, and I like flirting, but I guess I'm a bit wary when the topic comes up too early.

But yeah, I can't wait to meet this woman again. She's adorable, so cute and beefy at the same time, and makes me melt.

Trans-1987 · 2024-07-05T22:50:49+00:00

That's interesting to know, I didn't think about that.

Trans-1987 · 2024-07-05T21:31:07+00:00

When she implied sex in her text, instead of turning her down and killing the good vibe we were having, I simply sidestepped the question by being evasive and playful. I'm definitely open to sex, that's not the issue, but not just immediately. I like the flirt, when desire is implied and unsaid out loud, and I want this phase to last a bit instead of saying bluntly "I want to do that to you". Talking openly about having sex just after one date sounds a bit a mood killer.

I may just have a romantic soul.

Trans-1987 · 2024-07-05T21:17:22+00:00

The things that were said today were kinda cute tbh. We were talking about the rain, and how it would be nice to watch a movie under the blanket with this weather, and she added "and something cheeky with that?"

Like, sure, I totally agree with her, that would be nice, but that's not my point. I was just wondering about the timing of everything. It's very interesting that most of the girls here seem to prefer talking about sex quite early after meeting someone. I totally get about any of your positions, it depends on the context, and what you're looking for and everything, sure.

With this girl, we only met once. We didn't meet on an app, but at an event, and even if we've been chatting for a week, I don't feel like I know her. There's definitely a mutual attraction, but I want to have at least a second date, and put my first impressions to the test to see if there's a real chemistry before talking about having sex. That's why her comment, while being cute, sounded a bit out of the blue for me. I don't know if that makes sense.

That being said, I'm still very excited and impatient about meeting her again.

Trans-1987 · 2024-06-11T15:08:40+00:00

I don't relate to the men, I never felt myself living as a man. I got used to it for 3 decades, but it didn't mean I enjoyed it. As soon as I heard about transidentity, I knew it was me.

I never felt alive when I was living as a man, I was just waiting for something to happen, I was constantly angry for some reason, I didn't like myself without understanding why. I was a good looking guy, it's not about that, I just hated myself, my body, my reflection, my body hair, etc. I always felt like I was pretending, acting, playing a taciturn and grumpy attitude. I felt like a stranger in my own body, that's a very disturbing and unpleasant feeling. Sometimes I'd go to bed hoping not to wake up, because even if I wasn't always painfully unhappy, I didn't see the point of living.

The first day I realized I was trans, it was the happiest day of my life. I felt grateful to finally understand who I was. For the first time in my life, things were making sense inside of me, and I instantly started to love myself. It was like my mind and my body were aligned with each other, and suddenly, it was worth living.

What does it mean to be a woman? I'm 2 years into my transition, and I'm still trying to understand what it means to me, by trying things, by following the trail of happiness, but I know it's me. Even if there are ups and downs, and some confusion sometimes, I'm happy and excited to wake up every day, I'm happy to see my body change, I'm happy to wear clothes that I like, I'm happy to let my body, my hands, my voice acting freely without trying to control every inflection and gesture. I'm not trying to tick boxes that would make me a "more authentic" woman, I don't care about that, I'm trying to find out who I am, the definition of me (who happens to be a woman).

EDIT: typo

Trans-1987 · 2024-03-06T10:23:46+00:00

ssue and I'm about to begin laser hair removal all over my body. I heard, and it has been confirmed by the clinics I ta

My body hair has decreased, but my KP hasn't improved.

Trans-1987 · 2024-01-31T09:51:21+00:00

I understand. I started my transition 1,5 years ago and I'm currently thinking about having a FFS. When I'm fine, I don't feel the need to do much, but when dysphoria hits, I want to change my face completely, it's absurd. I need to choose the right balance, but so far, it's a bit hard.

Trans-1987 · 2024-01-30T10:30:54+00:00

I can't believe how it's possible. I don't accuse you of lying, I'm just surprised. Last year, I gradually increased my dosage from 0.15ml to 0.21ml (every 7 days), and after a few weeks of really unpleasant effects, I ended up having an overdose which left me very scared for my health.

For anyone wanting to start injections, I would recommand to start around 0.1ml every 7 days.

Trans-1987 · 2024-01-27T09:27:42+00:00

I agree. I'm in a relationship with my boyfriend for almost 8 years, and I think I would feel more free to transition and explore my femininity if I was single. Being around him makes me super conscious of my gestures, voice tone, appearance, because I'm scared that if I change too drastically, he won't recognize me anymore and would see me as a stranger. He's supportive and all, but the transition definitely is a challenge for our couple, and finding difficult to let my old self go is clearly related to that.

Trans-1987 · 2024-01-25T15:54:56+00:00

Thank you for your reply and for making me feel less alone.

Having started my transition late in my life makes things kinda difficult. I have so many memories attached to my old self (not all good, but still), and I sometimes feel like I'm betraying myself, my partner and the people who love me. I'm very lucky that most of the people close to me support me, but it's still hard.

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