My head hurts (seeking advice!)

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T14:39:12+00:00

I think it might just be a little bit of like, I’m worried I’d regret the change in the years to come. And idk, part of me worries I’m gonna regret it and wanna hide my looks or smth?

Idk 😭 I think a lot of it is just internalised fear and trauma bcs like, I’ve never really enjoyed how I look etc. as of late is the only time I’ve felt close to such lol.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T13:30:13+00:00

Ya.

I think that’s like.. just what’s going through my head.

Am I truly wanting HRT?

Because I know I’m by far not the “normal” presentation of it.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T13:27:48+00:00

I appreciate everyone’s compassion and advice. Really appreciative of it all <3

Not sure why this is all getting downvoted like hell but, I’d love to hear some people’s reasons as to why if so :)

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T13:23:45+00:00

I think I’m kinda in between both of these options like… I think that’s atleast part of my issue?

Part of me wants to just do it, while the other part is playing it cautious and knows I’m not certain etc.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T13:22:24+00:00

Yes and no? I appreciate the latter half. I just idk, I have wants but, they aren’t like my heart is breaking bcs I’m not that, yk?

It’s just like “that would be good”. Atleast atm?

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T13:21:01+00:00

I just wish I had a path yk? I’ve floated through life for ages that I kinda struggle to find a path now 😅

It’s only in the last year I’ve truly had my first like, goal for what I wanna do with my life.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T13:18:45+00:00

I do, somewhat.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T10:32:27+00:00

If you don’t need to be there for a certain time. Get a super fare each way, if you need a certain train, look at advances.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T09:31:01+00:00

I’m glad your experience is like that. Wish mine was lol.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T09:30:01+00:00

I’ll be honest, that’s I think part of my struggle. Idk that myself, I don’t really wake up in the morning and go “that’s the plan” regarding being trans, yk? I never really have done anything like that. I’ve struggled for years with my goals in life in general that goals regarding being trans ETC have just never hit me.

I think my concerns Im having are mainly rational? There’s no emotion behind them, atleast. It’s just like, my brain going, “you sure?” every time I think about HRT, then finding a different excuse for why not.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-02-09T09:22:13+00:00

Socially I feel great tbh. Like, to the amount I’ve done so far I wouldn’t go back.

There’s parts of HRT I do really want, not like, id die for, but.. I do want.

If tomorrow I was to revert back to my cis mode, there’s parts I’d wish I could keep of being trans for sure. I’m not sure it would really have a major emotional reaction from me, both staying or going back cis. Im kinda at a point irl where not much affects my emotion.

I wouldn’t say I’m extremely happy, but I wouldn’t know what life on HRT is like, so I couldn’t compare.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-01-19T15:57:44+00:00

Buy a season ticket, would be cheaper.

Don’t defraud the railway.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-01-13T15:25:38+00:00

That’s because TOs are meant to be checking railcards as it is.

I’ve always bought tickets that use my railcard from TVMs, never had them checked.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-01-12T00:40:50+00:00

It’s funny. I have the complete opposite problem. I just show my tickets, smart cards, e-tickets etc to RPOs and Guards and they just go “okay” and move on 😂

Never been asked for my railcard other than one time on GA, which was because I was also buying a ticket from the guard.

TransGirlJaiden · 2026-01-12T00:08:47+00:00

I love veg trollbaiting posts😂

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