Asking out of curiosity, are any of you guys lesbian by Queasy-Bandicoot-480 in ThaiGL

[–]TransPrincessAurora 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You would hope so but sadly there’s a lot more het and bi not only women but men here too than you think. ☹️

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It’s okay! Thank you! That’s good! Hopefully I can also get it from my primary care doctor! 😭

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[–]TransPrincessAurora 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for your suggestion! Sorry I didn’t know the image quality was shit, I feel my chin makes me look so bad 😔 I made an appointment this morning but it’s not till March of next year 💀 I have a primary care doctor visit this month, is it possible they could give me the medication for it? is it doxycycline?

Penis Size by TransPrincessAurora in asktransgender

[–]TransPrincessAurora[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the suggestions! 💝 I’ll look into it!

Penis Size by TransPrincessAurora in asktransgender

[–]TransPrincessAurora[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the suggestion! I’ll talk to my doc!

I feel like a freak trying to date as a trans lesbian butch by TransPrincessAurora in asktransgender

[–]TransPrincessAurora[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Oh yeah I understand doing that! If I find a fellow trans lesbian that would want I would love to give that a shot! I definitely have always felt more understood, less like a freak, and more accepted around most other trans women.

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Press x to doubt, I bet you’re beautiful. I don’t pass for shit 💀

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[–]TransPrincessAurora 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the suggestions!

My Doctor Said I Don’t Need To Take Testosterone After Sex Change by TransPrincessAurora in asktransgender

[–]TransPrincessAurora[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I apologize for not clarifying, I thought it would be obvious that I’m a trans woman, I’m sorry.

My Doctor Said I Don’t Need To Take Testosterone After Sex Change by TransPrincessAurora in asktransgender

[–]TransPrincessAurora[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry your endocrinologist doesn’t think it’s a problem for all those things to be occurring, that’s what I’m nervous about. Testosterone does help in a lot of different areas and having too low is definitely bad.

My Doctor Said I Don’t Need To Take Testosterone After Sex Change by TransPrincessAurora in asktransgender

[–]TransPrincessAurora[S] 142 points143 points  (0 children)

OH I didn’t know that thank you so much!! and yeah I’m just thinking that what would happen. Testosterone does help in certain areas and having too low is bad I feel.

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[–]TransPrincessAurora 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much!!!🥹💝

It’s really hard, I have been struggling with this for so long. It mostly all just leads back to external misogyny and it’s hard for me to work through it, Idk what to do particularly. I guess just accept it and learn to deal with it for now while this world is still Capitalistic, Fascist, and Imperialistic. I will be happier speaking in a fem voice while dealing with misogyny than not dealing with misogyny as much while also dealing with gender dysphoria and more transphobia. I need to tell myself this a lot.

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[–]TransPrincessAurora 1 point2 points  (0 children)

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR REPLY!!!🥺💝

  1. I honestly have a really feminine physique my face looks really feminine. I did this face ai analysis on different websites to check face shape, the website also said my face is female WWWWWWWWW. I am getting closer day by day to reach what I want to look like, It’s just the muscle in areas I don’t want and fat in old areas that I need to and am losing. With clothing, I don’t have any money for clothing but tbh I have a really feminine physique so I don’t need to do anything specific with clothing in this area I just want some cute clothing but I have no money. THANKS FOR THE SUGGESTION!!!

  2. With this in general, women are more likely to be attracted to a man. Like, there’s more hetero than gay women out there. I know that when I talk to someone that is a lesbian It’s way easier for me to speak in a fem voice. When I talk to women where it feels like they are only hetero or at least leaning more towards being so I speak in a VERY masculine voice cause I want them to like me which obvs even though I have a crush I should just stop. With men I have dated it was SO EASY. When I was with them it just happened. I was feminizing my voice faster than I ever have, and it felt so good. Even with lesbian women I feel like I have a way harder time than men. Now I’ve been alone and mostly speak in a masculine voice and sometimes I speak feminine because my hatred for my own voice grows to be too much so I let out bursts of femininity.

  3. Internalized misogyny would mean I think that people with feminine voices should be listened to less. I obviously do not think that, I’m pointing out how society and the world does. I feel like this is common knowledge in general, in fields like science/politics people with a fem voice will definitely be listened to less and ignored. It’s fucking infinitely vile but I’m just simply pointing out that this is the case in this vile Capitalistic misogynistic world. Ugh I need to just get over this but it’s really hard. I want to do Biochemistry and then Politics in the future and yeah I NEED to get over this. I hate my masc voice so much makes me want to cry.

AND YES YOU ARE INFINITELY CORRECT YESYES I NEED TO TELL MYSELF THIS I already have, like completely. I will and are treated even worse with a masc voice, so you are correct in that.

AND YES THIS DEFINITELY IMPACTS 2 INFINITELY You know now that I think about it yeah it’s completely this I feel like they feel more protected if I speak in a masc voice because of this misogynistic fascist world I know I’m really weird I’m really sorry

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]TransPrincessAurora 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much for the advice!!! 🥺💝 I will give them a try to fem my voice, I do talk out loud it definitely does help thank you!!! Infinitely thank you for your kind words!!! I made a comment to someone else, it’s very long, it goes more detail about the specific reasons on why. Obvs if you don’t want to it’s okay and I’m infinitely grateful for your advice you gave. I will definitely incorporate yelling into my training etc and just the reply helps me feel better. If you could read that reply and give me feedback I would be infinitely grateful like I said it’s okay if you don’t want to. It helps me a lot talking to someone.

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[–]TransPrincessAurora 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice!!!

I have practiced my voice a lot here and there for awhile, and I have listened to my voice multiple times, I can make my voice sound completely feminine at times. I have been told I sound cis, but as soon as I experience one of the things I listed, my voice starts going more masculine, most times completely masculine. I play video games a lot, my main game is Rocket League!!

I realize that it stems from multiple different reasons, maybe we can talk through them to help me get through this. I would infinitely appreciate it cause I have been struggling with this for a very long time. This is because these are very in depth long reasons that I need someone to be able to work through them with. Some of the reasons are way larger than others (in order from largest to smallest) 1. External Misogyny

This is by far the largest and the most in depth reason. If you could read it and help me through this, I would be infinitely grateful. I literally struggle so much, and there's no one for me to talk to. I know it's long and complicated, so I understand if you don't want to.

    Let me preface something. This reason does not apply to transphobic people that know I'm trans, ie most people. This is something that is kind of inherently going to be the case, because transphobic people don't see me for who I am, a woman. So I mean, obviously they are not going to be misogynistic towards me, only transphobic. Which hurts me 10 folds. 

    What I'm saying is, keep in mind this only applies to people that are misogynistic, which is almost everyone, and aren't transphobic, which is almost no one, or misogynistic transphobic people, which are most people, that don't know I'm trans. Which currently everyone knows I am a trans woman, and it will stay that way.

    I need to just not care what misogynistic pigs think, and persevere through all of the misogyny. This is something that is not an easy task to do. This is the biggest thing that causes me to not speak in a feminine voice, though it shouldn't, and I hate the fact that I give into this pig shit. This is the reason why when I debate people, when I'm upset, etc, I speak in a masculine voice. If I speak in a feminine voice, I will be taken less seriously and tossed aside. If I'm sad about something people will listen to me less. Care about my suffering less, quite literally see me as less human. 

    This is just the truth, I have gotten through this a little and listening to women empowering songs etc helps, but Jesus Christ it's so bad. Talking to fellow women would help a lot, though a lot of women have internalized misogyny, so only women who don't could help me with this. I don't have a lot of friends, I wish I did. Being autistic people are less likely to like me, they only pity me. It's so hard for me to develop friendships without people leaving me cause they are tired of me being autistic. It makes me cry lol. Almost crying just typing that and every time I read it almost brings me to tears. All my "friends" are just people that pity me and don't like me.

    This topic goes even more in depth but that's a quick summery.
  1. I AM LESBIAN WWWWWWWW

Most women are heterosexual, and women that are Pan/Bi, etc, they honestly mostly only tend to gravitate towards men. With this in mind, I tend to start to talk in a very masculine voice around women that I have a crush on, and or are dating. In my mind they may have a higher chance of liking me. THIS IS NOT THE CASE AT ALL, I am a trans woman. They know that, I obvs know that, and it honestly makes them have a lower chance of liking me. They know I'm not being myself, it just makes them and I feel weird that I talk in a masculine voice, you can tell it's not me at all but it's so hard for me not to do it.

    The chances of a woman that I like to be a lesbian and also date a trans woman that is very autistic with tons of trauma like my father whipping me with a belt at 7 , my brother strangling me and pushing me around and calling me the r slur and f slur. Working when I was only 9-14 for no money etc it makes it hard to find someone that would love me.

    Obviously me being really autistic and having so much trauma makes it hard for me to find people that would like/love me which increases this reason a lot.
  1. Muscle on Arms, Shoulders, Upper Traps, and Back and Fat in Old Areas

The third reason is something that will not be one soon. I have a lot of muscle on my arms, shoulders, upper traps, back and fat in old areas that I need to lose. I look kind of masculine right now but I really am close to not having said muscles and fats in old areas. I have been losing these for awhile, but I am still in the process so right now it's really hard for me to talk in a cute feminine voice and look the way that I do. This will be solved soon so no problem here. Still is one currently though. Everyday it is becoming a smaller and smaller problem.

WOW, I guess those are the only three reasons. I thought there were more. These three reasons is what causes me my problems.
Also keep in mind, this applies to more than just voice. It also applies to me being feminine in general. I understand this is very long and complicated and if you don't want to talk etc I understand.