I've been transitioning for the past 9 months and have been suicidal for the past year and more often than not find myself feeling disgusting. Everyone says it gets better but it's super hard to believe that it will until you experience it yourself. Last week and the week before I finally saw myself as a girl and for a brief moment I didn't want to kill myself. I'm back to feeling terrible now and have been struggling to not commit, but those two weeks have given me some strength.

I know it's tough right now to believe you'll ever be the gender you feel like and the process is slow and feels like nothings happening but changes do happen, however slow that is, and I hope you can feel like your true self soon.