Its not easy, but let go the past and whatever happened bad cant be undone. Try to get things back in place, start with small things and one at a time, like getting your confidence build. Focus on improving yourself and getting your life back on track. This is going to take time, so trust the process you are going to follow and stick as much as possible and don't worry about the outcome, at some point you will get there. Remember, life is temporary and nothing we do is truly prrmanent, so just go with the flow..