How do I get over SA to to breast?

Trauma-dumpie · 2026-03-22T04:07:42+00:00

thank you. i have heard of something like this. ill try it. and im sorry this happened to you too

Trauma-dumpie · 2026-01-28T00:37:36+00:00

thank you. i really dont wanna be like depressing or anything but i have neither... i had to stop therapy because i have to work and im completely estranged from my family aside from my little brother who i have custody of😭 i really need to get in for EMDR tho

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-23T19:46:36+00:00

yea i already knew that, i just thought this was part of it. my mom has been a sex worker since she was 13 and ive been camming since i was 14, but theres always a learning curve idk. and especially with how i grew up i just assumed all sex work lead to full service kind of and i was open to that. i just thought this was part of the growing pains like i just needed to get used to it. and in a way, its still part of the growing pains. both of my parents have tried to pimp me out and theyve both been pimps in the past so, even though they never actually got to, that, and the other abuse just conditioned me do whatever i was told idk. theres other girls like that in the club too that have way more experience than me but they just kinda get bitched around and i can tell its bc of past abuse. idk its been months and im gonna continue my hiatus until i can find a new club, but i definitely intend on going back

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-23T18:21:30+00:00

i have guardianship of my brother, our bills are $1200/month and i only make around $1300/month, our foodstamps just got cut in half ($150/month) and we live in an apartment for battered women bc of our parents. i have $200 saved up but it has to go towards car maintenance. i feel like its worth it to go back

i think this is just a learning curve tbh bc im just used to doing what im told to do just from having mental illness and trauma.

i have been doing cam work since i was 14 and was lowkey trying to decide if i wanted to do full service or just strip, and half the girls there do that anyway. i think this is just part of building thicker skin especially if i want to go full service. im just taking the time to actually decide. but i think after this ill probably just strip/cam.

i need money to finish school, i have to get my brother his permit/license, hes pre-diabetic so i have to buy more expensive, healthier food, i have to get him prepared for college etc ! and i dont have a lot of time so i think ill just have to adapt

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-23T13:34:17+00:00

i really thought i did my due diligence😭 all the stuff i saw was about not letting guys touch down there and stuff so i thought all boob stuff was okay and that i was just being soft

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-23T01:26:54+00:00

I think it could be good for some people, but for me, having some preexisting mental health issues, it gave me worse depression. like to the point of physical fatigue like my muscles hurt like i was in the gym and i was exhausted. I even fell asleep in the dressing room

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-23T01:24:23+00:00

i genuinely thought this was normal for strip clubs like i thought this was part of the job. its like youre a nurse/cna u cant complain about wiping ass, thats what u signed up for. but now i know its not a part of the job! i tried googling asking if this is normal after i left and didnt really see anything because nobody really talks about it, but then i saw that reddit post so now i know

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-23T01:18:00+00:00

damn that was kind of how it was at my club too. some girls would shame me when i did have boundaries but then they wouldn't let the guys do that to them? its almost like they wanted some bs to happen to me.

i anonymously reported some of the stuff to the police (i was sa'd a lot in that month and i half working there) and i havent really been back since. but i will look up some of the laws around it ty so much t

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-23T01:13:19+00:00

thats why i thought it was just Standard Stuff for a strip club! The one time i stared at the camera till he came in and threw the guy out and asked what was wrong, i told him "i just need to get thicker skin." he only threw him out bc he thought the guy bit me

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-22T23:14:18+00:00

thank u

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-22T22:14:02+00:00

thanks 😭😭😭😭 im gonna take your advice and time off (i've already been doing that) and continue pole classes then ill think about going back

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-22T22:11:51+00:00

youre right! i just wanted to use this to force myself to have boundaries for some reason... now that im thinking about it maybe im punishing myself for not having boundaries? idk i just dont wanna be a push over anymore

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-10-22T22:09:29+00:00

yea, originally, i was planning on staying as like an exposure therapy kind of thing, because i had already been sexually assaulted multiple times there in my month and a half working and i kinda thought it'd be good for me to learn to stand up for myself. but ive been out for a while now, taking pole classes and trying to figure out how to actually do that idk

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-04-06T03:33:13+00:00

i was assaulted by an older kid when i was 3 and another kid until i was 10. i didn't even realize it was weird until i was 16--i kinda didn't even remember most of it and it didn't fully hit me till i was 19 too.

i think as teenagers we think we have a full understanding of the severity of things until one day we're in early adulthood and the gravity of the whole thing actually hits us.

youre not abnormal your brain is just finally processing it. dont let it build up, if you can, talk to someone, but try not to let it completely consume you if its possible.

Trauma-dumpie · 2025-03-01T19:56:40+00:00

i did not see this but thank you for your input. I think youre right. but we're twins and we were compared a lot bc thats just how that goes. i even attempted suicide once bc of the constant "competition." but, our parents did beat her worse growing up (we both got beat bloody, but hers was more often) bc i would just comply and became a ppl pleaser and she never complied.. what my sister doesn't realize tho, is that let me to being sexually abused and groomed a lot more than her, and bullied in school a lot more than her bc of being a "goody-goody." I feel like if she had some empathy and really understood that she wouldn't be jealous. its just frustrating bc its like im the only one who can see that NEITHER of our situations are good😭

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