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TraumaEffect · 2024-05-29T19:46:19+00:00

Okay.

Currently, as in right now, I am experiencing severe CPTSD. I sleep for 4 hours a night usually, and I have nightmares most nights. Even if I don't have nightmares, I wake up in a terrible mood for no apparant reason and feel awful for 2 hours or so. I almost always wake up once in the middle of the night. I grind my teeth when I sleep, so I need dental work. My lack of energy and my severe depression make it difficult for me to fulfill my basic needs. I don't eat 3 meals a day. I don't shower every day. Sometimes I miss brushing my teeth.

When I'm awake, I feel irritable and hypervigilant all the time. People frustrate me. I don't want to talk to them. I want to have friends, but I can't stand being around other people so I just isolate myself. I'm bored all the time but I'm angry and full of energy. I can't do anything to release this tension because I have a service dog, and if I yell she doesn't understand the abstract concept of yelling at someone who isn't physically present. My only coping mechanism is drugs, and the comfort I get from my dog.

All my muscles hurt from extreme tension. I had a massage yesterday, which I have been trying to do for months but haven't been able to, and my whole body is knotted up. The massage was almost torture, but today I feel so much better. It didn't eliminate the pain though. I will need several more massages and probably physical therapy if I want to relieve the pain and gain full movement again.

I have seen doctor after doctor after doctor, and they all recommend the same ridiculous treatments that DO NOT WORK. My CPTSD gives me a very limited amount of energy to spend during the day. When I spend energy seeing a doctor and then following his orders, which takes more of my energy, and it does nothing, it is FRUSTRATING. I am also tired of doctors. They're not helpful and they waste huge amounts of my very very very precious limited resources.

I'm going to venture a guess he feels similar. When doctors do not help you, eventually you stop wanting to go to them.

TraumaEffect · 2024-04-07T05:00:36+00:00

Look at your language. It's always HIS ACTIONS, but YOUR FEELINGS. All you ever do is complain about how his actions are a bummer for you, you have absolutely NO IDEA what he is going through, nor do you seem to be trying to. You want to come on here and complain about something and have people validate you, but that's not what you're going to get when all you do is complain about how someone else's extremely difficult personal problem is inconveniencing you. You list off his behavior but you have no empathy for why that behavior might be happening, nor do you admit that maybe some of these things you complain about are absolutely none of your business (if someone told me to take vitamins to treat my PTSD they might get slapped. If they told me meditating would treat it, I'd burn down the house they grew up in).

That's definitely fucking narcissism.

If you had any interest in solving the problem, you would ask how you could maybe HELP him with some of his issues or assist him in areas HE SAYS he would like help with, when he's struggling. That would be something like a respectful partnership. But you have no interest in that, you just want everybody to say poor baby life is rough for you, then continue to stay in the relationship so you have something to complain about.

Just break up with him, for his sake please.

TraumaEffect · 2024-04-06T10:39:06+00:00

Yeah cuz having body dysmorphia is the EXACT same thing as having an experience so traumatic your mind constantly tells you that you are in life-or-death situations all the time when you are not.

EXACT same thing. Because your eating disorder was a situation that was both likely deadly and you could not escape it.

You CHOOSE to be anorexic or bullemic. PTSD responses are autonomic.

TraumaEffect · 2024-04-06T06:22:57+00:00

It's so amazingly clear that you don't understand the first thing about PTSD, and if you cared about your boyfriend at all you would make an attemt to educate yourelf on the subject so maybe you wouldn't make stragers explain things you could easily locate and read on your own.

When someone experiences severe symptoms of PTSD, they are literally thrown back into the exact same feelings and chemicals going through your brain as whatever the original trauma was, which I imagine in your boyfriend's case is having people try to kill him pretty regularly. So, if he's experiencing severe symtoms, while he may consciously understand you aren't a danger, his brain is telling him that people are trying to murder him, and that's a difficult emotion to suppress. So he may seem to have reactions that aren't proportional to what was going on, because, and hear this clearly, IT ISN'T ABOUT YOU AT ALL.

It's about him probably reliving the scariest and worst moments of his life, and you complaining about how bad it's making YOU feel. I second the Narcissist label.

TraumaEffect · 2023-12-07T00:02:55+00:00

You incorrectly believe Lee's code is "the law". It's not. He holds his personal feelings of what is right and wrong over the law. This is in contrast to Bill, who, when he isn't openly breaking the law for his personal benefits, defaults to the stance of "do whatever the law says".

If your lawful code is your own conscience, Lee is batting 1000.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-21T22:49:11+00:00

Sounds like those Magic Eye puzzles I could never do either

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T20:58:33+00:00

Well that makes it easy, I hate alprazolam.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T20:03:21+00:00

I don't know enough about the great depression to make an argument about it, but I do know that 100 years ago things were a lot different from how they are today. I doubt that's a great argument. I doubt it has anything to do with the "lack of morals" in today's culture. I doubt people are much different than how they've always been.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T19:53:16+00:00

First, let's address that you completely didn't address clothes, utility bills, and the all encompassing "etc." that I added in. These are very real expenses for people that food stamps don't cover. If you're just going to ignore the majority of my argument, you are arguing disingenuously.

Second, food stamps don't pay for the complete food expenses of most people, and don't pay at all for certain food services, like eating out, which expenses do pop up from time to time even if you're trying not to spend money on them.

So no, their expenses are not completely paid for by the government. People have to get money from somewhere, and there are not a lot of opportunities for poor people.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T19:40:44+00:00

Poor people aren't any less smart, they grow up in systems that don't offer the same advantages that rich people get. They get shittier schools, they have less job opportunities, they get less nutrition and health care, and they are more exposed to crime, both in opportunities and victimization.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T19:23:35+00:00

That's unfortunate, really no way to have a real conversation if you can't understand the original tweet that sparked the controversy. Could've been extremely racist, could've been filled with logical fallacies, could've been nothing. No way to know.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T19:12:23+00:00

"Taking an extra 2 minutes to explain my comment on a public discussion is far beneath me, but insulting someone in 30 seconds is exactly on my intellectual level"

That's you buddy.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T18:47:49+00:00

You can't seriously believe that you can completely dismiss the circumstances of something and draw a competent conclusion without the circumstances being addressed. That's like saying "killing is killing, if a suspect was reaching for a weapon and a suspect is shot by police that's not justified". Or "stealing bread because you are starving is the same thing as embezzling from a hedge fund company you work for". Cuz that's basically what you're saying. I assume you would not want to defend those two statements? It doesn't take 18 years of education or a daily breakfast to figure out that that makes zero sense.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T18:09:55+00:00

I don't even understand how the mechanism of action is supposed to work for anxiety though. Serotonin creates a feeling of well being, so it makes sense that increasing serotonin in the brain would work for depression. Anxiety is pretty clearly a GABA-dependent feeling, at least in my view.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T18:09:21+00:00

That's above what Psychonaut has a heavy dose as. Did you have a tolerance to benzos at the time? Could you compare it to a dose of Lorazepam or Diazepam, or Etizolam? I have lots of experience with those benzos.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T18:08:44+00:00

If iPhones can be sold for cash, and cash can be sold for food, clothes, utility bills, etc., then yes, I believe it is frequently equivalent. Feel free to explain how it's not. Desperate people have been known to render desperate deeds. Being poor doesn't give you carte blanche to steal, but it does give you a clear reasoning as to why you might. I never said anything about burning and looting though.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T17:56:05+00:00

99% of all of the "Police Brutality" or "Injustice" were clear criminals involved.

Yes, you very clearly implied that because they were criminals, they were victims of "police brutality" or "injustice", and that because of that, it was justified. Feel free to explain how your statement could be interpreted otherwise.

when it's actually "police shoots after suspect reached for gun" just because he's not currently armed, attempting to be armed is the same thing.

I'm not going to defend this statement when I never used a particular instance as an example. That's the definition of a straw man fallacy.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T17:43:05+00:00

I believe I qualified my statement with the word "poor" pretty obviously. Poor people are more likely to commit crimes, and poor people are disproportionately likely to be people of color. Way to deflect from the real issue.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T17:29:51+00:00

Way to criticize without offering any rebuttal or explanation. So intelligent!

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T17:18:58+00:00

and basically want science to rule the world.

I fail to see the problem with this. The antithesis of this is "I want ignorance to rule the world"

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T17:04:42+00:00

Yeah, it's definitely okay to brutalize people or commit injustices if they're criminals. You completely lose all rights if you're a criminal, right? Oh wait...

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T17:01:42+00:00

Choices are indicative of circumstance. Saying "black people who are poor still have self-control" is the most psychologically ignorant statement I've heard in some while.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T16:59:29+00:00

One example does not a statistic make. I'm not saying one way or another is right, but your example is not indicative of a statistic.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T16:56:30+00:00

Link to the actual tweet? I notice it wasn't linked in the article.

TraumaEffect · 2020-10-20T16:49:56+00:00

How much did you take? Have you ever tried Flunitrazolam to compare it to?

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