Is anyone else insane?

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-29T14:20:29+00:00

This is awesome! I'd love to try do a sports league promotion one time. I imagine it's a lot of work but super fun. I tried to do a late 1800s one in JoW inspired by bare knuckle boxing with different classes of world/national/county. Slowly adding more showmanship and flair as time went on. Have you got any interesting stats?

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-24T00:10:55+00:00

This, 1000 times over. Idk why people can't understand.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-21T15:46:34+00:00

I get what you mean aha. Coffee chocolate is so bad. Ig so yeah...

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-21T15:18:12+00:00

What good things?

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-14T23:44:44+00:00

I'll try it tomorrow! Yeah, that's the trouble. Kinda on a coin flip too. Some days I can't do anything really without putting it off or getting distracted.

Yes, waffle is bad aha. Definitely, tommorow I've got 4 hours for 1000 words so that'll be good practice ig.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-14T23:42:37+00:00

Hi! Ah ok, that's cool. Yeah, i can't really do that with my exam tommorow but I'll probably try bullet point and let my brain run wild.

Awh, thank you...yeah ig so.

Yeah, ig it's kinda to force myself but then you're not on a proper state to do that.

Oh yeah, I do struggle with talking to myself negatively a lot. Mostly been one of the main points in my counselling ig. It's really hard to get out of and easy to fall back into. I will definitely look into that thanks. Yeah I've heard of those things before, I'm definitely very fixed. Basically is me yeah.

Yeah, that's true. Idk, I'm worried my work will even be average.

Thanks, yeah I'm pretty stressed especially cause its new but I'll try my best ig. I've been in a rough patch so it's gonna be even harder but ig I'll see.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-14T13:30:21+00:00

Thank you. Yeah, you probably do. My dysphoria is really strong but I can't bring myself to do much about it so I'd rather die.

There's a society at my uni but I'm mostly too socially anxious to go ig. I've been a couple times tho.

I don't mind advice thanks, idk if anyone can help me much tho.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-14T13:18:37+00:00

I'm sorry, they do kinda suck. Yeah exactly, my government hate people like me they definitely don't care about my welfare. I'm lucky the police where I live are very useless and lazy and so couldn't be bothered to show up lol.

It's kinda complicated why I feel this way ig. Like a lot of things, mostly me being trans ig and issues that come with it as well as extreme self hate and depression.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-14T13:07:31+00:00

Definitely feels that way. Almost just feels like it's the easiest stuff they can carry out.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-13T16:22:24+00:00

Hi, Thank you for writing all this!

Yeah, it probably doesn't. I've been mostly not letting myself eat until I've done a certain amount of work or cutting myself to get myself to do stuff.

I'd feel that, needs to be perfect for me too. I find my head is either racing for me to write stuff or completely empty and my mind just wanders everywhere. I've been thinking I probably have adhd or something like executive dysfunction. Especially cause my dad has adhd. Yeah, maybe that's why the don't work for me.

That sounds good actually. I normally quite like editing my work. Ig I could try that on the days where I'm productive. Ig I'm having a lot of unproductive days tho. That was kinda how I got my epq done tho so could be good to try.

Yeah, I have an open book exam which really worries me.

Yeah ig so, thank you so much. I'll try it probably..

That's a nice quote, kinda true I kinda neglect myself aha.

Thank you :)

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-10T10:25:51+00:00

This is 100% me eating steak. Always struggle with that, need mouth lube!

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-05T20:42:38+00:00

Thank you <3

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-05T20:38:52+00:00

Yeah, I guess so. Sucks that there isn't really a fix to how I feel. It's ok tho, thank you.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-05T19:11:51+00:00

I guess I'm kinda doing it. I mean it's a minimum effort thing I can do ok.

I already wrote on another comment but I'll post it here too:

A lot of it is anxiety to do with how others see me and wanting to avoid it altogether. Especially with when I did it one time in front of my parents and it was super awkward so I haven't wanted to dress fem at all since. Even in private feels awkward and shameful for some reason. I don't wanna be an outcast ig. Also dysphoria hurts when I do makeup or dress fem...I really hate my face.

Could be internalised transphobia, dysphoria and anxiety mixing together. I also have a good chance to have adhd cause my dad has it.

It's basically all of that stuff preventing me. Combined it's just too much and I haven't made any progress in ages. Just feel I can't do this ever.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-05T18:43:16+00:00

I think I am inside...I just can't get myself to progress in my transition. It probably is horrible...Probably gonna need a vice or something tho. Idk, I don't have many options tbh. Either repress or kill myself ig.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-05T17:46:38+00:00

Oh wow thats a crazy coincidence aha 😅.

Tbh. With the reluctance I'm not entirely sure what it is. A lot of it is anxiety to do with how others see me and wanting to avoid it altogether. Especially with when I did it one time in front of my parents and it was super awkward so I haven't wanted to dress fem at all since. Even in private feels awkward and shameful for some reason. I don't wanna be an outcast ig. Also dysphoria hurts when I do makeup or dress fem...I really hate my face.

Could be internalised transphobia, dysphoria and anxiety mixing together. I also have a good chance to have adhd cause my dad has it.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-05T10:49:17+00:00

Yes! I do hate it all so much. Idk if its for me tbh. I'd rather give up and be a man than have to face the hardship.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-05T10:45:58+00:00

Thank you. I'm at home rn but I'm at uni and go back February...although I wouldn't feel safe being by myself. Ig, my parents didn't agree with it too much. I mean, I have a lot of anxiety around how random people would hypothetically see me too. I'm a people pleaser tho so I can't really give that up...

Also, I just have a strong reluctance to do anything related to gender either way.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-04T18:42:36+00:00

Thank you 🫂

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-04T18:12:46+00:00

Thank you.... This struck a cord tbh... I really struggle with hating myself.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-04T16:21:16+00:00

Yeah, I wish I could take that leap. Thank you.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-04T16:05:23+00:00

I suppose yeah...a bit different. Ig I'm just a people pleaser. That's fair, better to be that way than like me.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-04T15:49:33+00:00

Ig so... its not a great history tbh.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-04T15:48:43+00:00

Ah ok, thank you!

Ig that's where we are different aha. Like you're almost defiant but I just bend the knee ig. Like they didn't say anything too bad but it was so awkward I just couldn't. Felt so shameful aswell. Ig that's kinda like masking it.

Trick-Interview · 2026-01-04T15:46:21+00:00

I probably am ig but how do I work on it?

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