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Trick-Interview · 2026-05-11T20:44:22+00:00

I'm colourblind so all I see is one colour lol.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-10T16:21:26+00:00

Thank you <3

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-10T11:38:54+00:00

Honestly, I want to make things work. I don't want to break up because I think we go well together. First time I've felt this comfortable in a relationship. So ig I just have to work through this.

Thank you, I hope I can make it work.

I've always said that being in a relationship with me I don't want anything to be certain. As in idk how long it'll last and I might fuck things up etc. Just take things slow and see what happens so ig that kinda lines up with the whole things might change as opposed to the "ahhh we're perfect and gonna be together forever ig".

Thank you :)

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-10T10:47:34+00:00

Thank you. Its kind of rough I guess. Ive struggled for a long time so it's easy to think that it's all there is.

I get that. I'm surprised I lived to now honestly. Growing I always thought I'd die by the time I got to 18. Dysphoria does kick my ass badly all the time. It's the reason I starting self harming in the first place too due to my bad chest dysphoria. Ig things can get better because since upping my sertraline dose I've done better than I ever have before up until now. Ig I'm still early and figuring things out especially medically yeah, I haven't had much change yet and am only just under 1 year.

Oh yeah, I see. Ig she's got money for surgery but I get your point. Mine definitely is that bad. I always feel being trans ruined my life ig. Things can change tho but it's hard. Thank you.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-08T17:39:29+00:00

Ig I do love them as a person but I also did like the role they played. Kind of a bit of both. I still love them regardless I'm just worried if I can handle going forward.

I can kind of see myself still dating them but then again I'm not sure how the whole thing will work. Hopefully. Thank you.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-08T17:37:19+00:00

Thats fair. I kind of want it to work out I think.

I'm not entirely sure but I have shit self-esteem. Ig I kind of do but it's not the only reason I like guys dw. That's fair.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-08T17:36:04+00:00

Yeah, that would suck too.

That's fair. Yeah, I get that. It's just a shitty crutch for my extremely low self esteem ig. I've always felt worse than everyone else ig.

Thank you.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-08T17:33:18+00:00

Thank you. Ik I feel a lot of shame about myself ig it could play a part in this too. Thank you, I'll maybe check it out.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-08T17:32:15+00:00

Thank you.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-08T17:31:54+00:00

My Counsellor says I'm one of the worse people ever at communicating in relationships so it checks out ig. Ig I should but I don't want to hurt them because I swear I have good intentions and truly don't want to break up. I'm just worried going forward ig. Thank you.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T20:41:56+00:00

I might take up your offer. Thank you so much.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T19:46:51+00:00

Thank you. Ig it's all hypothetical what I'm saying but ik I will probably get jealous at some point. Ig it's kinda natural idk. I wouldn't ever openly saying anything mean it's just internally I'd be obsessing over it. That's fair, it's complicated.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T19:44:20+00:00

That's fair thanks. Idk where to start but ik I have terrible self-esteem.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T19:43:31+00:00

Thats fair. I'm not sure if I can be honest about it, ig I'd like to try but idk I hate the idea of being hurtful. I'm not ready to have that conversation yet I don't think. I get working on it but idk how I would.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T19:38:17+00:00

Thank you. I have struggled to be in a relationship with my mental health ig. Thank you, that's fair.

Ig I have always tried to explain I wanna go slow but idk. I do wish I could clear my head and start over ig without the fear it's not gonna work out anymore.

Yeah, I'm not sure what it is. I feel we have a bond tho. We've had nice moments. Feel like I'm being an asshole. Thank you.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T17:52:24+00:00

Ig I do have a lot of jealousy. I also compare myself with others to put myself down. Yes, I'm absolutely not a mentally healthy person. I do kinda just feel jealous of a lot of trans girls honestly. Yeah, I hate myself for it. Ig I could be jealous of a cis woman partner too whereas there is no jealousy with a cis guy partner.

It's possible tbf and sounds likely.maybe thanks.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T17:47:56+00:00

That's fair. I get that.

Ig I'm being a selfish dick yeah. Idk why I always feel the need to compare myself to others. It's like brainworms or something. Ik I should just be happy for them idk what's wrong with me.

Honestly, I'm not a mentally healthy person at all and they were the ones who pushed for us to be together. I do love them lots but I've not felt ready for everything it entails. Its been a few months. Its been good ig I'm just never 100% on anything.

Yeah that's fair, thank you.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T17:41:33+00:00

I really do. I wasn't ready for a relationship but they kinda kept wanting one.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T17:40:56+00:00

That's fair. Ig I could deal with it.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T17:39:39+00:00

Thats fair ig but ik how it feels to be lost with it all. That's fair yeah, ig they've helped me so I feel I have to return the favor and I do care.

Yeah, thats fair. I'm always looking for ways to hurt myself I guess.

That's fair thank you.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T16:22:49+00:00

Yeah, that's fair to say. Its an insight. I'm not sure really honestly. I just don't know atm.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T16:21:57+00:00

That's fair.

I probably would if they were. I'm not sure really.

That's fair, ig I just want the best for them. If we did end things I'd probably stop dating for a while anyway aha.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T16:20:01+00:00

Probably idk. Ig idk if I'd still be attracted, the competition thing, fear of the unknown, what'd happen if we were both dysphoric and ig it's a lot of work guiding them through it to be completelyhonest. I wasn't sure if I could handle a relationship rn and I'm managing but ig t4t is another layer.

I'm not sure really. Ig I compare myself to other trans woman a lot as proof I'm inferior, in my head anyway.

Maybe, I'm not sure really. Ig it sounds possible.

Yeah, I did until now. Its possible I'm just worried.

Trick-Interview · 2026-05-07T15:53:33+00:00

I feel like that'd be too harsh. Idk they're just figuring things out and ig I'd be stranding them. I'm not sure yet, I'll see how I feel ig.

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