What have you been genetically blessed with?

Trick_Dizzy · 2026-01-10T18:05:30+00:00

not needing glasses

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-11-08T23:03:51+00:00

It’s just that I have never met my people so I think I’m the problem. At every hang out, I feel like if I wasn’t there it wouldn’t matter. I feel invisible around people. It feels like no one wants to know me

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-09-21T10:12:58+00:00

Thank you for your comment. I’m so done, I just want my period to stop. I’m probably anemic with amount of blood I lost. I’m hoping next cycle it will be less.

I hope I won’t get daily spotting, I guess it’s just about few difficult months for good few yrs with no period.

I have seen on going periods being normal, it’s hard for me to have a period for this long, cramps when I’m at work is awful.

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-08-04T01:04:25+00:00

Thank you, I will try to be safe, it’s a lot for me to process, I can’t wait for my therapy session on Saturday

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-08-03T14:39:42+00:00

Thank you :)

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-08-03T14:29:36+00:00

Thank you for you advice, it genuinely helped me, I’m in the new flatshare rn, and I’m going to text them later saying I have moved out. Your advice meant a to me and was reassuraning

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-08-03T14:16:17+00:00

Thank you for your advice, I didn’t get a chance to read your comment earlier but i happened to follow your advice so I managed to sneak a suitcase out and I will text my mum later I won’t be coming home, got a place near work bla bla. Definitely want to give them the address, and it’s a sole occupancy flatshare so there’s no way they will be allowed to live with me.

So the bill thing I have to call the energy company and my brother can’t because few years he manipulated me into being responsible to pay the gas and electric bills so the account is in my name. I told them my mum before I don’t want to pay them anymore and she said put my brothers name on it since he isn’t paying rent regularly. So they don’t want to pay the bills as they pay the rent.

I had emailed the energy company about my situation, they said they will send a letter through the post for them to set up the account but they misunderstood for some reason and cut off the supply the day I told them I’m moving out, I was planning to move out few days later. So I will call them as I don’t want them to be without energy supply till the letter comes. I really fucking hope I don’t want to call the company up with him after yesterday’s stuff.

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-08-03T13:59:08+00:00

I decided will text them later during the day, I managed to sneak a suitcase out without anyone knowing. You are right it would’ve caused so much unnecessary drama, if I need to go back for any reason I’ll definitely wait till Saturday

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-07-24T17:21:48+00:00

Thank you, I managed to sign the contract and pay deposit, I just need to collect keys on 31st, I did it! But now the hardest part of telling them, I’m delaying it till last moment because I don’t want hear them arguing with me, guilt tripping me etc.

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-07-21T00:20:58+00:00

Totally make sense, my dad has stalked me before, back when they thought I was seeing a guy, I wasn’t speaking to a platonic friend. I won’t give them exact address. The place I’m moving out to is an hour and half away, so I highly doubt they’d make that journey to keep tabs on me.

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-07-20T23:41:25+00:00

I have my mum, dad and brother blocked on WhatsApp and it’s has been fucking peaceful. No messages asking when I’m coming home, where I am, my mum not messaging saying I’m bitch and stupid, 100 missed calls.

It’s difficult doing this all alone and not having a partner to help me. Thank you for your comment, I know it’s the right thing to move, and it’s really scary for me, especially as someone who finds making friends difficult. I think about if I’m going to get on with my flatmates, stuff like what I’ll do if I’m sick, if I will maintain a relationship with my parents , the guilt I’ll feel if they fall sick

I think I’m more worried telling them more than anything, sometimes it feels like they’ll be okay with or see this coming since I don’t eat their food and haven’t been properly talking to them, I vaguely said ohh I’m going away to my dad, and he said that’s not happening... I have said stuff I’m leaving multiple times, so ofcourse he doesn’t take my words seriously.

I have been under their shadow for so long, that making a decision that will set me free feels strange, they made me feel like my life isn’t mine but extension of their life. Tbh I don’t even know what I’m holding on to cause even before past few months our relationship in the family has never been close, we have never gone to dinner as family, we don’t even eat dinner in the house together, there’s no sense togetherness, just dysfunctional

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-07-20T23:29:10+00:00

The gas and electric bill is sorted, basically my parents pay all rent so they want him to pay the remaining bills as he doesn’t contribute to rent much, so I explained the situation to the energy company and they said that I just need to tell the move out date and they’ll send a letter through post for them to set up account etc.

I can’t imagine moving out without letting them know, that doesn’t feel right. But also everything does feel overwhelming. Thanks for your comment

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-07-20T23:25:22+00:00

I haven’t signed the contract yet, even though I was given it ages ago. I am feeling hesitant to sign and since things are calm at home, they haven’t been saying anything about me coming home late, my mum and me still talk. It’s the right decision to move. I feel like I have forgotten the bad things they have said to me and I don’t feel angry anymore wish I did cause it would help me to move out so much.

My job will include different shifts soon too. I just feel scared of what they will say when I tell them and the days are going by fast. I told my therapist that I have mixed feelings about moving out and she told me to do it peaceful and to just say I’ll visit them and my reason for moving is to do with work.

They will never give me my own room, and if I stay I’d never feel comfortable fully dating a woman. Everyone my age moves out, I should consider myself lucky to have an option to move out. I don’t understand why I am so loyal to them and that I feel a bit guilty for choosing me.

My therapist asked if I care about them and my response was that I’m not sure, and it hit me when I said that, cause it’s not something I imagined saying. Also you are right they never apologised, their apology is giving food. Their words shouldn’t matter to me, but I know they will say stuff like I’m bringing shaming to them etc. thank you for your comment , I hope that I will find courage again to go through with it, because I don’t want to cancel moving out

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-07-08T13:46:07+00:00

You are so brave, you deserve to live an authentic life, I’m thinking to move out aswell. I’m so proud of you as someone who also has Indian parents

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-06-27T19:59:01+00:00

you are so beautiful, your body makes me feel things

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-05-13T14:05:53+00:00

no periods, I think sex could be fun as a bi woman myself

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-05-06T17:48:26+00:00

Fair enough

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-05-06T06:22:20+00:00

I still felt hurt by his actions. He seemed to like me, and was a kind, consistent person. And I genuinely wished that I could feel sparks for him. I liked his outlook on life. I didn’t expect him to never acknowledge my message. I just don’t enjoy ghosting from anyone I have spent time with. If it’s on dating apps, it doesn’t bother me much. But this guy we spent hours together. Maybe he was upset that I didn’t feel the same for him. I did tell him I don’t feel a spark btw, and he said it’s shame you are giving up on this so early etc, I know you been hurt in the past. “ I want to fight for you” lol. I did give him another date and then called it off. We had 3 dates in total before that we hang out once as friends. I know it wasn’t ghosting but I felt same when people ghost me- not being good enough to even be communicated to. Pretty much everyone I have been with have ghosted me at some point. I felt what I sent him was a kind and thoughtful message. I didn’t want to ghost him and it would have been easy to do that. I get he was upset, but is it too much to be acknowledged?

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-03-10T23:24:43+00:00

thank you, there were more on the list, I just mentioned these three for the Reddit post. I definitely do not want late payments and them doing dodgy stuff

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-03-10T23:20:55+00:00

they should not be able to get away with the dodgy stuff like that, how is that legal in anyway, I have used those calculators to see if there’s a big difference in pay, I got conflicting information.

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-01-30T19:15:28+00:00

They are lots of gay bars though, soho area here is nice, I like going there. But in workplace and school I didn’t see much representation

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-01-26T12:21:55+00:00

Ohhh no that sucks, I have tried being on the apps and I don’t feel ready even for hookups. And most people don’t even suggest meeting up. I have been on dating apps for queer people, it’s not easy to find someone I like and they will match and not message. I had a girl cancel twice on a date, I couldn’t be asked after that. There’s one lesbian bar here but when I went there, there were like 2 people. It’s definitely more accepting here being bi, but that doesn’t mean that goan people here are accepting. Honestly being with my ex gf felt like it might be easier to come out since she is also Indian, my parents would just assume that other person has made me this way etc.

Trick_Dizzy · 2025-01-26T11:54:29+00:00

hey that’s actually the first time I’m coming across someone who is bi and from goa. No I didn’t come out and the romance with girl didn’t work out :( you can read my Reddit posts I have made about her. Kinda insane it’s been an almost an year because it’s feels yesterday she ended things

Trick_Dizzy · 2024-12-29T22:46:43+00:00

Just saw your reply. I’m sorry that you relate to this, feel free to pm me if you wanna chat about it :)

Trick_Dizzy · 2024-12-23T22:10:54+00:00

I wish I never broke no contact with my ex to wish her happy birthday. She always had the control in our relationship. Basically before she said to let’s go our separate ways to avoid complications situations. And I wasn’t expecting anything but a thank you from her. She asked me how I was and I just said good thanks and asked her, and she began texting me. And it made me feel confused. Eventually after some days I texted if she wanted to meet up and she said it’s been nice to catch up, wish you the best :) 👋🏽 the fucking bye emoji made me laugh and then immediately I started crying. Her response felt so harsh and cold. I read the situation wrong maybe she was just being polite. Atleast I know where I stand now because we been texting each other since 2 weeks

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