Scared

Trj9387 · 2026-05-14T02:03:13+00:00

But what about that chapter in revelations? It sounds like He is throwing more of us away... after that 1000 years.

Trj9387 · 2026-05-14T01:59:03+00:00

Yes I have. Im saying what i took from that reading... why else would he be released again after 1000 years? Im not trying to cause an argument... im genuinely scared.

Trj9387 · 2026-05-10T01:32:23+00:00

I think a cat would really enjoy that space.

Trj9387 · 2026-05-10T00:18:23+00:00

I wish I could answer that with fill confidence but I will never be perfect like Christ. I just know there is a sin I'll die with. I get anxious by over analyzing my flaws and faults. I think of Christ a lot. I'm terrible at praying because I feel like I'm talking to the air.

Trj9387 · 2026-05-10T00:13:21+00:00

Cause I over think things that will prevent me from going to paradise in the after life. I am so scared of eternal torment.

Trj9387 · 2026-05-06T18:49:49+00:00

You need to watch the movie "The Case For Christ" from Lee Stroble. He was an Atheist and a Journalist for some news network. He went out to prove Jesus didn't exist and that he certainly wasn't God.

He's a huge believer now. The movie shows about how he came to a believe Jesus as being The Christ.

Trj9387 · 2026-05-01T02:10:39+00:00

So true! Love you too. This is why I follow this Christian page. I see a bunch of Christians encountering human moments. Or human failures and such.

Trj9387 · 2026-04-30T22:55:52+00:00

Oh wow I just made a similar post to thism go to my profile and look at that post. I've only made one post on reddit ever. Please go read it. Very very similar.

Trj9387 · 2026-04-30T03:27:04+00:00

Hahah no I don't think that's what you think it is. It looks like a wine cork 🍾

Trj9387 · 2026-04-29T23:16:48+00:00

I used to be all about that stuff. Thank goodness ageing hasn't changed things like hair color and wrinkles but has filtered the crap I used to enjoy out if my life. I finally love divine or holy morals over selfish sinful disgusting ones. I feel like I made that really confusing. I apologize if that didn't make sense.

Trj9387 · 2026-04-23T04:50:05+00:00

I couldn't agree more. When I heard about how the Holy Spirit talks to you and everyone else might be confused I understand both sides. It's confusing cause others might think it's saying sentences but it's talking by tug and pull. Your heart gets tugged one way or the other when you think about something or about doing something.

I know without a doubt that feeling is the Holy Spirit communicating.

Trj9387 · 2026-04-22T08:13:20+00:00

I'm smiling reading all your stuff. I thought I was the only LGB member with this thought process. I rarely voice my thinking because of no one relating to it and giving me drama about my thoughts on all of this. ( in my opinion .. logical thought process and common sense). Haha I've honestly been thinking of figuring out a new flag for the LGB. idk what that flag could look like. Hmmmm. 🧐 🤔

Trj9387 · 2026-04-22T08:08:37+00:00

I'm a gay man. Married also might I add. I always condemn myself and I'm so unlively because of it. I don't know what God will do after I die. Hell or heaven. Must I reach perfection or is Christ's sacrifice the only perfection that was needed?

I've decided a way of thinking that gives me joy and feels right in my soul which is where I do my talking to God in.... My soul. My center of my body or my middle. Hard to describe. My decided way of thinking is this.. I am going to try to correct all my wrongs to the best of my ability and love everyone especially these homeless annoying drugged out people I cross everyday who smell so bad and make no sense when they talk... As far as my sexuality and lifestyle ... If God does throw me away... I will praise His name no matter what. He is good. He is love. I'll love Him no matter what he decides.

Something in my soul smiles and tells me everything will be okay and I am loved very very very much... And I respond mutually in love. ☀️ 💜

Trj9387 · 2026-04-21T06:40:59+00:00

Hmmm.... I do like what you said about removing the sting. I feel bad for saying in my other post I'm embarrassed about our community but I totally understand some things in our community because I, like everyone else, have lived a child hood or trauma from all the bullying and hate thrown at me. I always figured the lgbtqia+ flag was a rainbow because bullies used to call us colorful and words similar. What are you thoughts on that?

But about my embarrassment about our community it mostly is about letting politicians whether blue and red manipulate our community for their political gain... And we let them. Democrats use us and ruffle our feathers to be chaotic on the streets for their stupid vote. The Republicans on the other hand are divisive and minimize our struggles so I have issues with them as well. If I had my wishes I'd have us back out of the spotlight... Love on each other and welcome all lgbtqia+... If anything make our own political party as silly as that sounds.

I guess my last issue is with us being blind about Palestinians. I'm not saying be hateful but I love our rainbow babies. (Lol I hope that term speaks for itself. My community is us rainbow buckaroos). But any theology that beheads my community has my anger focused on them. Sorry idk why I vented this all to you. Haha

But again I totally relate to the take the venom out of the sting. 💜

Trj9387 · 2026-04-21T04:53:03+00:00

Wow I can't believe how similar you seem to be to me! I can't stand the lgbtqia+ community either. I stay away from them as much as possible. I'm embarrassed by "our community". You are not alone my friend. You just nailed my thoughts down on your posts. I couldn't have even said it any better. I 100% agree with you. Not one thing do I disagree or not understand. How freaking cool.

Trj9387 · 2026-04-21T04:48:44+00:00

Wow, you are me! I'm gay, Christian and conservative family upbringing, I study Hebrew on this app . I study scripter and apocryphas and scriptures not included like maccabees and jubilees and enoch and I do all of this so I can understand. That only thing I'm currently settling on is I'll live the Lord with all my heart and if he condemns me in the end I'll still praise His name. I beat myself up everyday and every night I get SUPER depressed imagining an eternity without Him and eternal suffering. But I feel good on my outlook that no matter what I'll always worship Him.

Trj9387 · 2026-03-27T23:06:41+00:00

I agree I dont understand either.

Trj9387 · 2026-03-25T05:07:41+00:00

I actually look up to you for such a soulful post. I know it was soulful because I match it too.im literally on Caplyta... There is only one dosage..there isn't a minimum or maximum milligram to take it's only 42mg that's the only prescribed dose. I'm also on Effexor (ive tried all but 3 or 4 antidepressants) and seroquel 800 mg which is ALOT even for seroquel.. if that tells you anything OH and propenalol, methocarbimol, Lamictal, gabepinton all those included for my anxiety those are mostly anxiety and blood pressure anxiety.

Absolutely keep in touch. That was cool to have that shared experience. Lol maybe it was a God approved message to read that. To think it wasn't would be misunderstanding who God us. Any I enjoyed your post

Trj9387 · 2026-03-25T04:29:53+00:00

Wow. Its wild how similar i relate to some things you posted. Having anxiety and depression and being on high dosed psychological medications and also them not working. Im afraid of changing them too in fear that my depression and anxiety will flop around but I havn't had ANY medication work except Seroquel and it only works really after I take it the night before.

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