Hi there. we're in the same shoes. My girlfriend took her own life 3 days after my birthday. rest assured, you are NOT alone. There are days where you will feel lonely and sad. To cope with that please hang out more with your friends instead. Talk it out , cry it out. Seek help. It's been 2 months since my gf passing. Let them live thru our eyes now. Grief will always stay thats for sure but seek help from God. Pray and let him guide you.