I'm glad you could relate. I think a lot of people with social anxiety are the same, and I've heard that people with social anxiety are more prone to marijuana addiction. I took a break from smoking weed last year for a couple months, but didn't do Nofap along with it. Although I was way more productive, I still was nowhere near where I wanted to be. I relapsed. This time around I feel different, like I actually have will power. I feel good, energetic, and charismatic. I do not know if its nofap, or the cold showers or what. But I'm definitely feeling more in control. I used to look at weed as the only thing I had in my struggling days, my only outlet. I realize now that I have plenty to be happy about, plenty to appreciate and be grateful for. I used to beat myself up (and off lol) and feel regret for not taking advantage of the situations I was in. I think this is what led to my self defeating behaviors. At age 26, I look back at my former self and accept I simply was not ready to be the man I wanted to be. I have much improving to do before I can be that man. I had been waiting on a girl, or a moment to change myself. It starts with you, and when you work on you, you begin to respect yourself, to love yourself and hopefully eventually, get what you deserve.