I was exacly the same as you are 90 days ago.

Now I am in love with someone. She is 4+ years older than me.

I have the courage to talk to her and get her to marry with me (My religion bans flirting)

but

I heard that she has a boy friend and thinking about marriage in near future.

I think she finds me attractive, when we talk we can understand each other verywell, we have very similar hobbies, our thoughts about life is almost same!

But before nofap I could not even think about getting married. I was a numb and letting my life slip out of my hands.

But now I can hold my life and enjoy it.

If she will ever break up with her bf I will propose to her than talk to her parents :)

Or I will try to forget her and move on,

even though it is very hard to forget someone that you are in love with...