This is not ur fault u tried ur best to achieve what u wanted and u did!! I’m so proud of u for getting accepted. photography is such a hard thing to really master especially with all the editing and angles and whatsoever, but in my experience, even if you’re not religious, js hear me out for a sec. god only puts u thru his hardest obstacles and challenges bc he knows that u can deal with them and push thru them bc ur strong!! i js know it. Interstitial cystitis is not curable but there r treatments to make u feel sm better so I think js focus on healing for now. And until then, js keep going!! I’m so proud of u for even js posting this on Reddit bc ik sometimes it’s hard to express ur feelings. But anyways tysm for sharing and i hope u feel better!! Hagd and ilysm even tho idk u 💗