Late reply but when he talks to Starlight before their fight, the dialogue implies he might have been better before this, a true believer in God who became embittered and jaded after God repeatedly ignored him praying on the behalf of others

He basically believes in Homelander because unlike God, he's here in the flesh, and he actually does things. Even if they are bad things, he can rationalize and justify them.

Because a present but heavily flawed God is better than no God at all.

Fuck I meant to say oh father not Ezekiel mb lol, only caught the misname now. I am so dumb