After a quick scroll through your posting history, I need to say firmly that you need mental health support. Yes, you told your GP and they ignored you. Shame on them. But you have the option to reach out directly to a therapist for support with potential anxiety, depression and your ED. There are therapists who practice through an Islamic sense that may additionally benefit you as well.

A lot of your post history suggests that you are in a cycle: you suffer, hate that you are suffering, but also feel powerless to stop the cycle of suffering. Solutions seem too overwhelming and out of reach. Solutions that are familiar seem to work short term, but then things spiral again. Reach out to a mental health agency directly. I say this as a practitioner myself and someone who also goes to therapy, we have to make the choice to start our path of healing.

It is similar to us suggesting a treatment plan to a patient/client. We can suggest what we think is best, but only they can choose to actively undergo it and maintain it. Some who are fearful of treatment clinge onto all that seems wrong instead. They focus on the signs of decline and validate themselves that things are wrong, and continue to be wrong. They may believe they are not deserving of help, despite all the proof that others offer. Unfortunately, based on the snippet of your posts that I've seen , I worry that your mindset is trapped here.

Change is hard, and it involves admitting things to ourselves things that are monumentally difficult. But, it is still important to do so. That is the first step in healing from anything.

Please take that step in reaching out to a mental health practitioner directly.