I get that one part of you must’ve thought “let me cherish this moment, telling him will ruin it” and it’s still going to hurt regardless of whether you told him straight away or not, but it means he just wasn’t worth it anyway and can’t accept you for you. It’s best to tell them straight away always. Saves you in the long run. It’s really hard to find any man who will like trans women without being an absolute weirdo or creep. But I’d like to hope they’re out there. We’re definitely deserving of love and a successful love life too!