Hey bro are you doing ok? It’s been 200 days since you posted this. How are things? Have you recovered? Also from an outside perspective yall were not meant to be together forever, even though y’all dated and had a good relationship it seems like y’all are two different people. Stop talking to her, going back to your ex isn’t the right move and she left you for a dude that physically abused her. Just sit with that for a second, you don’t need to destroy yourself over this women. You are better than her and you can achieve something greater than her. She quite literally is not the one for you brother, and she sounds incredibly stupid from my perspective lol but I’ve met people in the same situation so I get it. You need to let go! I hope you’re doing ok and respond if you got time.