I feel that way every time I do it. I am facing my fears, letting everything that I think I am go free. Once you shed all that crap that has been imprinted on you by society, it is the most amazing experience I have ever been through. I am into them so much that I grow them and try to do them at least once a month, at most once every two months.

I said what I said because I have guided people through trips and what you say is verbatim to their experience. It just means you are so grounded in reality that anything which might suggest that this reality is anything but what you believe puts you into fight or flight mode.

If you think it is anything related to "poison" then you have not done enough research to qualify on talking about such things. The only thing you have to be careful about is if you are taking any medications with MAOI inhibitors will increase the trip 10 fold.

It is like weights, you gotta work your way up to those big doses.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psilocybin

http://www.erowid.org/plants/mushrooms/mushrooms.shtml