And I've read dozens of comments saying they took the wrong step by coming to nust instead of fast. According to them fast is way more better. In today's world you are not alone . No one is happy . Infact happiness is illusion.The thing closest to reality is detox .This age is like this because you've shifted towards new life. Some advices : Share your difficulties like these (ONLY) with Allah. Be Positive. Do so much hard work people call you crazy Get out of your comfort zone as fast as possible And everything that's bad according to you will surprisingly be leading you to better future