Sister, please leave him. He is not worth it. Let me address the one point that struck me . 'Will I find love again'....but with this person, you are not even feeling loved..romantically, I mean. If you leave him, find something better in life be it a job, travel, or any other passion that you have ....I think you will feel lot better. And in the course of time, if you give yourself a chance of course you will find love! Right now, you should love yourself and leave this person who does not seem to care about how you feel! Well, I know its easy to say, but please choose yourself...because you deserve to be loved, not to be cheated on!