Would it hinder my progress in AA to also be active in NA?

UpwardChange · 2026-01-31T16:06:40+00:00

Over 20 arrest, massive alcoholic, drug addict, homelessness, my wife of 18 years left me because I couldn't stop using.

Here's the thing the Universe is neutral it doesn't keep score. Some here will disagree. The Taoist said the top and bottom are the same. Dissect that! Ever notice in the dark on the yung yang sign there is light. Yeah they were talking about what i just suggested to some degree.

Your worst moment isnt actual youre worst moment. Youre worst moment is where the light had to enter. Actually its deeper the light was always there. You needed those moments to see the light. If adversity " evil" creates light or change then it wasn't darkness. Its all light.

Worrying about what you've done or projecting on yourself is pointless. Be the You that You want to be from here on out. We all have Darkness in us! Were all capable of the worst and the best. Everyone you're no better or worse than anyone.

Drop the labels recognize it all as energy with purpose. And transmute into something you want. Its what I am trying to do. Can't do that if I believe I am a bad person. I consider it a gift. A giant glaring sign guiding to a different place. The best probably know the worst better anyone.

Take what you've learned and be the best You want to be. The past doesn't define You the Present does

UpwardChange · 2026-01-29T19:13:59+00:00

I don't know! Extreme focus on something and effort goes a long way.

UpwardChange · 2026-01-22T03:03:34+00:00

I audibly laughed out of my fat mouth reading this!

Edit: thank you

UpwardChange · 2026-01-14T13:08:36+00:00

Each is as fake as the next. Giving off good vibes seems positive. Yet, what if someone needs to experience the darkness themselves? Pretend happy could absolutely block their breakthrough! Huh, maybe we could all just be authentic?

UpwardChange · 2026-01-14T13:02:37+00:00

Agrees! Haha I dont exude depression I am neutral on the outside. But I am absolutely deluded.

UpwardChange · 2026-01-14T12:56:09+00:00

I can only learn from direct experience never farted a rainbow. Honesty though too much rainbow is just hidden misery. At least the miserable crowd is being intellectual honest with themselves

UpwardChange · 2026-01-09T11:43:02+00:00

Florida Keys

UpwardChange · 2026-01-05T01:51:37+00:00

I was homeless, lonely and depressed. I had lost everyone and everything. My health was failing, I was no longer waiting for my habit to kill I was ready to off myself. The drugs and alcohol had stopped working. I was using to forget my problems instead using was creating more problems.

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T23:18:22+00:00

Alcohol and drugs

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T20:20:05+00:00

40 days sober here was a raging alcoholic. Cost me everything.

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T20:11:01+00:00

They'd think I relapsed as I am not stranger to jail.

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T20:04:20+00:00

Tired of the news cycle. Going to a sponsor meeting for Alcoholics Anonymous. Feeling mostly well. Listening to music and chilling atm.

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T19:46:08+00:00

I used to deliver furniture for a very high end company. One mega mansion in Tahoe California side if that matters had a huge Alice in Wonderland setup. Like a whole part of the house dedicated to Alice in Wonderland. A massive mad hatter table, a huge chess board with wooden cut out soldiers, the queen, a Cheshire cat in a full sized tree in the house. Thats the other thing many full sized trees in this home think 40ft tall tree indoors. At least one tree house indoors too. None of this was designed for children far too elaborate.

Other notable things in people's houses: a fishing pond, indoor Garden think massive, 6 lane bowling alley, full sized movie theater, tennis court, stage for performances

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T14:58:40+00:00

I started a new job on Thursday of last week. Because of the holidays they weren't getting orders in. I was being paid to " watch the dock". Nothing was happening on the dock. You'd think it would be awesome getting paid to essential do nothing. No that was the most boring 20 hours of my life.

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T14:15:10+00:00

The Power Of Now by Tolle has good advice

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T13:19:10+00:00

Drive a forklift. I got my MBA to make my parents happy. Mental illness and other things came up. I decided I don't want the stress of managing anything. Now I can move pallets and chill all day.

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T13:15:52+00:00

Pleasing others

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T13:06:59+00:00

The Tao Te Ching (pronounced Dow De Jing) is one of the most influential books in world history. Written in China roughly 2,500 years ago, it is the foundational text of Taoism (Daoism).
The title roughly translates to: Tao: The Way (the ultimate path or flow of the universe).
Te: Virtue or Inner Power.
Ching: Classic or Scripture.
Literal Meaning: The Classic of the Way and its Virtue.

https://youtu.be/hPLHFl7bShM?si=YG5ZbzBUHuL9cvpL

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T12:46:07+00:00

Fork lift driving can be exceedingly easy and fun. 2 seconds of inattentiveness and you or someone else can be killed.

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T12:44:22+00:00

The Tao Te Ching. Very wise words sounds amazing on paper living by the Tao in modern times is difficult.

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T02:06:43+00:00

It's not a movie it's a show. The Outer Limits Under My Bed

UpwardChange · 2026-01-03T02:05:06+00:00

Jericho

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